~Never~Fear~That~Your~Life~Will~End~,~Only~Fear~That~It~Will~Never~Begin~

~This~Is~It~

2009-06-30T01:31:00.000-07:00

This the last post~ I am quitting blogging~
Thx all for all the readers and supporters who had been supporting me~
Thx u all~

~A~Weird~But~Yet~Satisfying~Holiday~!?~

2009-06-09T09:18:00.000-07:00

Wow~ My blogs been as dusty as ever, haha XD~
Haiya no point to update la if ppl dint come read also =.=
Oh well~ my blogging life ends the moment I study at Aus haha

Here I am back at my 3-star room, sitting in front of my 7k laptop trying to kill time~ my holidays bla bla bla... wake up, bath, tv, lunch, gaming session (at least 6 hrs per day)... thn dinner, supper, sleep haha... I only start sleeping at 3am - 8am daily haha~ crazy gamer I am

One fine Sunday, fk crazy hot weather, feel like slacking at home bt my good pal GY ask me out to fishing... Duno y I agreed but it turn out disasterous... We drove to the sea to fish but its not high tide, screw it... thn we go Tanjung Sepat to the jetty but got marriage function (fk ugly bride)~! no choice, go fishing pond must waste rm 35+ zzz fuk tat la... at the end, we went bk to the sea and its finally hightide~! YES~@@!! But the sun was freaking hot, nearly fainted... Fished for 4 hours and only got 3 fish (size: 15cm - 68cm), happy also la but nv go care wat kind of fish it is XD~

Went home and had a small fish BBQ pt wit frens, its fun and crazy... but with rm 50 petrol and 3 hours wasted, it merely worth it... sad XD

1st day bk at college and got bk my mid term papers, cant say I was satisfied, still sad over Maths... fuk Maths. ARGH~!!*o&^$&@^&%$
Results:
Acc: A17
Law: B15
Econ: B14
ESL: A18
Maths: D08 <--- WTF

But its fun to hv old pals back to talk crap off my ass XD Btw, Seh Sen is coming bk this end of June, 5 Betarians of 2008 got any plans plz discuss ASAP... tats all

~Beware~Of~Confident~Tricksters~

2009-04-23T05:47:00.000-07:00

Wow~ first major case since 4 months I started living in this house... and yest sumthing rock our house... a THIEVING CASE... by a FUCKING INDIAN CONMAN~!!!

The whole story started around 1.30pm where I came back my room to study for my exam at 3pm... and there is my roommate watching TV at the living room as usual... about 15 minutes later... and there is the short fat Indian guy knocking at my door asking to check the bathroom... I thought that my neighbor asked the house owner to check the bathroom... Rather than thinking twice, I let him in and let him do his job while i continue with my busy study...

The neighbor came back home and asked who is the sound in the bathroom, I told him tat the plumber came and he say ok b4 hurryingly take his stuff and went out with his GF... But he locked the door b4 he went... about 2.45pm or so thn I went out to the main campus for my exams... without thinking where did the Indian guy go...

After exam, woohoo~! Got a whole lot of activities planned for the night until all got screwed up when my roommate came back at 10pm... He yelled that his laptop and his roommate's laptop were gone... So I thought fuk... It must be tat INDIAN guy... Then my roommate and my neighbor argued about who to be blamed... Things got so chaotic till we asked the houselord to come...

Apparently, he brought us to the police station to make a statement... aiya... all Malaysia police are the damm same... take ur sweet time and enjoying teh tarik while we waited for 1 hour... Mother fuker... After making the statement, we went to another police station again to meet with the investigation officer... There we spent another hour... and I dun like the cheap attitude the officer shown us... he interrogated us like we are the criminal while we are the victims~!? WTF...

The whole ordeal ended at 3am... Then my roommate and my neighbor argued about whole fault to be blamed... But both have their own fault too... 1st thg, my roommate should not had opened the door without confirmation from my houselord about anyone coming for repairs... And then my neighbor, both his and his roommate's laptop would not had be stolen if his roommate had locked the lash from outside the bathroom since his and my bathroom are joint... It seems tat the thief hide in my neighbor's room b4 running away so he may have a chance to steal both my and my roommate's laptop... But we always lock our lash so he got no way to enter our room...

Man... sad case... my roommate managed to persuade one of my neighbor about the repayment of a new laptop... 50-50 for each but not the other neighbor yet coz he is away in Redang... If thg dint go tat well, he might need to move out of the house... dun...I will be lonely later... To be honest, I dunno which side to take coz I cant decipher whose fault it belong to... You be the judge~

P.S:~Never~ever~believe~in~strangers~no~matter~who~they~are~or~who~they~claim~to~be

Is~This~The~True~Me~?

2009-03-31T00:26:00.000-07:00

I took the quiz from the link from Elise's blog? Results:

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I decided to take on more of the personality in the quiz and the results...:

Here is the analysis:

1. You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.

2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

5. Your girlfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your girlfriend, are thinking.

Hmm... my evaluation for the quiz that is I am impressed... It managed to score 70% from what I think of myself... However, people do change... who knows I might change in the future? Evil or divine? I dunno, its either Heaven or Hell to me anyways...

~Desire~For~A~Drastic~Change~In~The~World~

2009-03-24T05:45:00.000-07:00

Wow... Since when I last log in my Blogger acc... Well, hi all again and here I am, still as EMO as ever... XD~ Havent been blogging for about 2 months already due to boringness, busyness, sadness and of coz ASPD (Anti-Social Personality Disorder)...

Been missing good old 5 BETA life with old pals and the gang... Well all that are nothing but honey sweet memories of the past d... I can see that most 5 BETArians changed alot since we last met... Aww well, I guess people do change after all just like me XD...

Havent really got the chance to meet up with the gang coz we are all at diff course, college or country... Been missing you guys alot, all the craziness, happiness, sadness, EMOness we shared together XD... I still have the original copy of the 'EMO contract' u know? How good if time will just stop flow according to my will...

Life in college has been as busy as ever... Project done, project come, homework done, homework come @@... man... wat a life... Which bastard say that collge life is fun and loose..zzz... Thx to this busyness, I didn't got the chance to enjoy my 800+ mangas (86 of them still havent read) yet... man...

EJ's collge life: 7am (wake up, bath, breakfast); 8am (college class start), 11am (breaktime, normally come back room to slp); 12pm (class resume); 3pm (class end, come bk do hw/ chat with Seh Sen or Seek Sean/enjoy a cup of hot tea); 5pm (afternoon nap); 7pm (wake up, bath, dinner); 8pm (do hw/ revision/ finishing project); 11pm (entertainment time, anime/game/movie/music); 1am (slp...zzz)~ this boring cycle of daily life been replacing my life since start of January... BORING... ARGH... HOW I HOPE FOR A NEW CHANGE...

About my SPM result, haizz... what a disappointment... dint manage to get the Taylors scholarship... dang it... thx to it, been feeling depressed ever since and suicidal tendencies increased for me... my parents screwed me for my bad performance... wtf... THE FUKING GOVERNMENT BEEN BIAS TOWARDS GOVT SCHOOLS AND INCREASE THE MARKING STANDARD FOR PRIVATE SCHOOLS~!!!! THAT IS WAT HAPPENED~!!!... I wonder if any1 out there not satisfied with their results should complaint, but I doubt the govt will do anything... sad...

Well at college, life ain't all bad coz I managed to get close substitutes of the 5 BETA Chinese gang in class... Not to say I forgotten the original 5 BETA gang la, but still they are fun and my only pillar towards my mental mind... thx all...

Well, thats all for now and probably be my last post in blogger life... Found it pointless to continue blogging as no ppl come to visit d... haizz... anyways its a fun life to begin with but a sad way to end it... Sayonara...

1st meeting of Taylors Anime Society and Visual Novelling~

2009-02-06T08:57:00.000-08:00

Wow~! Today is the 1st meeting at Taylors Anime Society~ I can say that most of the members there are a heck more otaku than I am =( Sad don't have enough capital for character figurines ><

Today we had a wonderful meeting discussing what are the coming events coming this year for the Anime Society... I really hope everyone will join, everyone is welcome! We had Comic Fiesta, Bon Odori Festival, jap school learning, anime screening, doujinshi, art session and of coz Anime Festival XD Can't wait to get a yukata for the Bon Odori Festival~ =3

Anyways, I get a more information on cosplaying >< Dang how I wanted to cosplay even its for just 1 time for the coming Anime Festival... There is a senior cosplayer really entered our room cosplaying as Gintoki Sakata from Gintama~ thats is so total awesomeness~!!! I wanted COSPLAY so freaking much right now... Each costumes cost RM600 - RM2000, my budget T.T

This year we also decided to have 30th anime anniversary for the ever popular Gundam series... I am unsure what the committee is planning but I hope its gonna be a BLAST since I am really a Gundam Freak~!

I went back Banting today and my long awaited order had arrived~! Visual novels woohoo~!!! The visual novels are Memories After Rain Vol 1-3 (3 in 1) and Memories Off 5~ I really luv the novels for these visual novels until I decided to play it myself, cost me another RM 300 == but its was well worth it~

Man, college lifes just suk the life force out of me so fast... Lectures, projects, homework, common test, assignments, notes gonna drive me crazy... My friend say university is much more worse... Omg... anyways, tats all for this post, I hope every friend in college good luck and never give up XD

When there is dream, wishes shall be granted
-Asuka Shirohina, Memories Off 5

A Seed That Flown Away, To Germinate In A Foreign Land

2009-02-01T02:04:00.000-08:00

This morning at 6am, I woke up at a gloomy mood~ After dressed up, I fetched my 2 friends Hong Shen and Geng Yong to KLIA to send off a very good friend of mine... That good friend is Chong Seek Sean (chubbycool) who will be flying to Perth today...

We reached KLIA quite early coz he was just about to check in his luggages... However, we greeted his family members and we spent time crap-talking and bull-shitting about each other (favourite activity of the Banting gang)...

Then we had a short breakfast in MacDonalds... considering the gloomy atmosphere, but we tried not to be so sad by enjoying the meal and crap-talking to the extreme... but Seek Sean's whole family apparently came and we get to know his lil mischievious cousin XD

Well its about time to part... We gave our best blessings to Seek Sean... Hugged and handshaked with him... His mum and bro cried the most coz I really know how it feels to be real lonely... When he went down the immigration gate, we waved hands and shouted goodbye to him... And there goes another good friend... Can't help to shed some tears lol...

Seek Sean my friend, all the best over there and conc in ur studies coz its a very important year for u and everyone... Good luck there and don't forget us in Malaysia XD

A Couple of Happy and Sad Things~

2009-01-24T21:54:00.000-08:00

Well hi all~ its been about one month since I updated my blog last time~ to be honest who is the bastard that say college life is fun and relaxing ==? Gonna kill tat fella~ Well this post is about some happy and sad stuffs that came up~

I will start from the happy news 1st~ Well I finally get my stinkin' driving license~ Man, I suffered 4 hours under the freaking hot sun really faints me out~ But its really heart-pumping when you are in the car during the test coz stuffs might come out unexpected that might fail you~ (its Malaysia, what can you expect?: faulty engine, gearbox, car in poor condition, and of coz undertable money ==)~ But I finally passed that crazy ordeal, thx God~ Can't wait to drive my very own car (Honda CRV) =)

The next happy stuff is that Chinese New Year is coming tomorrow~ Hanging out with friends and family, angpau, snacks and drinks, delicious delicacies, gambling~ what other things you can expect from CNY? Really hope some friends will come and visit me this year~ Everyone is welcome~!!! HAHAHAHA~!! (Fireworks going haywire~ ==)

Well its time for the sad stuffs now~ T.T As you all will know, 2 of my best friends will me studying outstations soon~ They are Seh Sen (handsome) and Seek Sean (chubbycool)... Sian you 2 la, why want go outstations so fast? Anyways its gonna be REALLY quiet and lonely without you 2~ Sad you all la~... But I wanna give you 2 some advices...

Seh Sen: Man~ What am I without you... Since Form 4 u know me and I know you~ You po my lp dunno hw many times d? But its really fun with you around... without you my ad.maths sure all RED marks d~ you go Melbourne take care of yourself o... Dun worry I will join you after 1 short year~ so wait for me ya... dun forget Skype or vid call if you got time~! Friends forever, take care and good luck in your studies...!

Seek Sean: Walao you~ y u want go Perth? Sian you man~ how can I get in touch with you after I go South Australia (Melbourne/Adelaide)~ anyways its gonna be sad and quiet without you in Banting~ Gonna miss the times we had together... Anyways good luck and take care in Perth ya! Remember to vid call or Skype whenever you free...

The last sad thing is WTF is college life... daily studies from 8am-3pm~ come bk no time relax must do mountains and seas of homework and projects or assignments~ sad no more afternoon nap =( I am doing this for my future... ya... but this is totally torturing...!! And time crawls slowly when it comes to study.... Darn it!!

Well I gonna end the post right now... Happy CNY to all~!!! Gong Xi Fa Cai~!!!

A Big Step In Life~ College Life Officially Commenced~!

2009-01-04T23:21:00.000-08:00

As you all can see~ Now I am officially a student at Taylors College~ Yesterday I moved in my lil student room~ its not big but its spacious!~ Well I wonder wat kind of room tat other guys get?

For only rm510, I get marble floor, weekly change of bedsheet, cleaning, full-equiped kitchen, study table and a rack~ The best is I get a hot shower machine, water filter and free 4M internet access to the internet~!

The guys here are nice and warm-hearted~ Although they are elder than me, but they taught me alot abt the new house XD~ I am currently sharing room with a Kedah ppl~

Today is my orientation day~ man~ its blackhole of boringness~ I spent 2 hours in the Multi Purpose Hall listening to stuffs abt the campus and another 1 hour in my classroom listening abt the rules of the campus~ tired~

Well 7th is the orientation day of the A lvls students~ wonder who will I meet up there~ Hope to meet sum of my old pals there XD~

Sry but this is a short post~ too tired to go on d~

Merry Xmas & Happy New Year to All~ Also a couple of Birthday Wishes

2008-12-24T20:29:00.000-08:00

Well~ This will be a very short post~ I would like to wish everyone out there a very HAPPY CHRISTMAS and another HAPPY NEW YEAR~ May you all have a wonderful celebration and another properous year at 2009~ This is a wallpaper I made with my gundam forum fans, feel free to take it though~

Another thing, I would like to wish my old pal Andre Tan HAPPY BIRTHDAY~ sry cant wish you earlier coz I couldn't get any phone coverage when I was away in Hatyai, Thailand~ very very sry >< Btw, dun EMO alot ya~ Hope we have another wonderful year together at Taylors next year XDI also like to wish camwhore king, singing champion of 5 BETA, Lee Seh Sen (handsome) an early HAPPY BIRTHDAY~ Even though you are away having fun in Japan and drooling over Japanese chicks ==~ But dun forget abt us ya! Sad you are leaving for Melbourne, Austrialia on 26th Jan~ But nv forget we are always still friends! Work hard in finding your one true love XD

Oops, of course I cannot forget about Amy Tee~ sry ya for the forgetfullness (getting Parkinson's disease)~ Happy Birthday to you too~ Wish you another properous new year and may we meet again sometime in the future XD

Finding Reasons To Continue Blogging~ And Something About Classmates~

2008-12-16T09:27:00.001-08:00

As you can see from the title above~ I been losing hope and almost 100% in giving up in blogging~ The reasons for me to quit blogging:
1) Declining visitors
2) College life to consider
3) Stress of life
4) Maturing mind
5) Losing interest in PC
Any1 out there who is reading this post~ Plz give me strength in continuing in blogging~ I tried to quit but my feel of guilt and remorse kept making reconsidering this fact of blogging~ Thx for those friends and classmates out there who had been giving me hope~ (Plz write the reasons on the chatbox)~
Anyways, I been feeling lonely, boring, sad after saying goodbye to my secondary life~ Good ol' 5 BETA, thats wat all 5 Betabytes say~ Throughout the course of Form 5/ 2008 life~ I had met alot of different people, who had been guiding me to the right course of life, although I am the one who always deviated off course~ Thx alot, honestly~

These are a few words I would like to share with a few good classmates who had been going through this hell of a warfare with SPM~ Good work, everyone~!
Of the Chinese Gang of 5 BETA:
Seh Sen:
You know what? I still mind the words u told me when I 1st came to 3 Omega (my 1st year at Sri KL)~"Yea la, fuk off you betrayer of 3 Omega!!"~zzz~ But nvm, you know normally when there some projects or course going on, u sure po my LP to get in my group coz u know I will 100% get high marks~However, you had given me much hope and strength in 5 BETA~ With your singing and quirky actings, I breath life inside my lungs lol~ Even though we disagreed sometimes, but thx for everything u had done for me~ Good luck in Melbourne and may u find your 1 true love ASAP~ Wahahaha~

Sam:
You always call urself handsome just like Seh Sen but nt really exaggerated lol~ You always teach me maths and ad.maths lol~ I can see my maths improved because of you lol~ U always likes to go clothes hunting when we went for any outing and posed like Jay Chou when you tried on some new clothes~ You are good at studies and never get disappointed with results~ Put in more effort and you shall see the fruits of success very soon~!~See you again in Taylors next year and may we have another good year together~

Benny:
Why u this crazy, muscle-brained, moneybag~ Yea yea~ I know you are rich but never ever get satisfied with wealth~ as your parents worked so hard to get them~ Anyhw, you are 1 good fren with a taste in philosophy XD~ Never get disgraced at your results, work hard for the future dude~!~Btw, your muscles are degenerating, better work them up~ See you next year in INTI~

Seek Sean:
You are 1 hell of a friend~ We had alot of fun together throughout the year~ We went through study groups, driving courses, undang test and numerous outings together~ Its a good thing having u around for the year~ Its sad that you have to go outstations so fast but I wish you all the best dude~!~ Thx for everything for these years~

Elephant / Ching Wei:
Well~ I wanna say sry for any bad things I done or say to you during the year~ But you are a good fren and always hang with any1 well~ Never get too obsessed with Jolin Tsai as she is really getting OLDER lol~ Anyhw, good luck in your future and its nice to have u around for another year together at Taylors~

Andre Tan:
Man~ you are one hell of a potential guy~ You are mad at ad.maths, great at music, superb at drawing lol~ Its nice to have you coz u are really an anime and game freak as I am lol~ But dun get too EMO always ya coz you really need to socialize in order to be successful in the future~ Good luck in your future ya~ and lets rock Persona World together lol~Woohoo~!!
Girls of 5 BETA:
Elise Cho:
I still dun understand what ur mind is thinking also~ but u are always cheerful~ a good monitor that gives the class hope~ but u really need to be more responsible though =o=~ thx to you I get hope in blogging and getting over with my EMO problems (undergoing)~ honestly, thx for what you had done for the class and the gang for this year~ I might not be meeting you much at Taylors but I will try to stay in contact~ Good luck in your future~

Amy Tee:
You are the type of person who gets along with anyone well~ You are hardworking and happy-go-lucky always~ But thats what make you so interesting~ I see that your socialize skills are way much higher than my level of socializing~ But anyhw, you are also a great fren to have~ Good luck in the future and may you shine always~
Man~ I really gonna miss 5 BETA alot~ its sad coz times doesn't wait for any1~ Treasure the moments we have together and it shall be the most prized possesion in the galaxy~!

Long Awaited Freedom, SPM is so freaking OVER~!!! ~Woot~

2008-12-01T16:12:00.000-08:00

1st Dec 2008, guess what? SPM is so freaking OVER~!!! WOOHOO~!!!

But yet I felt remorseful~ Is this a feeling of sadness or guilt~? That morning the F5 students had accounts~ But honestly I dint study much coz acc is like a so so paper to me~ that morning we talked about the afternoon Sunway outing and why HE knows about it~ that son of a bitch~ whatever la~

Paper 2 paper was kinda challenging, cant imbang the 2nd question~ but heck la, ez paper also~ during break, I had my last cup of fav Teh Ais in cafeteria~ Felt like crying as I sipped down the cup of beverage to the very last drop~ and thus sparch the last paper~ spent only 20 minutes on acc paper 1~ wrote an EMO poem and a big thx you to all the invigilators on the exam slip~ then I spend the last hour in the school's hall and think of all the craziness I had since I came to this school~ And then after the invigilators collected the paper, almost everyone cheered and yelled~ of coz I joined the craziness too~ Woot~

Later that, me and Chua went one last trip to the stinking toilet of the school~ cant believe he go camwhoring half-naked lol~ after getting changed, we went to Sam's Myvi to Sunway Pyramid~ You wouldn't want a 2nd trip in his car as he drive as though he was playing a racing game (Gran Turismo, Need For Speed, etc...)~ We have to look in all directions for him for any incoming vehicles~ We also saw William Ng on the way and went racing~ William Ng was way crazier than Sam as he speeded like a mad dog, wonder how Celine in his car survived the ordeal~

Get to Sunway at 1pm, and why that Mother Fuker (CMD) have to follow us?~ Chua... hw can you leave us!? I thought u want to spend the day with us~ but its ur choice la anyways~ The gang decided to go all out on food that afternoon, we went to Shogun Japanese Buffet restaurant~ Spent at least rm40++ there, but the food was actually superb~!!! I had fresh oysters, handmade sushi, tako (baby octopus), shark fin soup, grilled lamb rips, scallops, live prawns~ The gang chit-chatted, singing, eating as though the place belongs to us XD~ We played with the fresh oysters just like in the movie Mr. Bean's Holiday, wahhaahahaha~

After 4 full rounds of food, I really couldn't stuff in anymore into my lil stomach~ So I decided to leave early for my own shopping spree~ Went to Comic Paradise, AnimeTech, Popular, Speedy and Digital Centre alone~ Catch of the day: 15 new manga, 1 cross-shaped 4 leaf clover phone strap, Code Geass R2 anime, game soundtracks and a new set of Chinese novel (Celestial Destroyer)~ Too bad cant find any Code Geass accesories =(

Later that, I regrouped with the gang with Chee Yeong tagging along~ We went to Digital Centre and went on digital news collecting~ I joined on coz I had to get a new laptop for my coming college life~ Every laptop looks nice and promising, but I really cant make up my mind for it~ Whatever la~ I also bought a new external HD for my stuffs~ I had to coz my parents installed a new set of CCTV and the desktop required a large space for the CCTV vid~

After digital news collecting, we went to the bowling alley for 2 games of bowling~ it was fun and enjoyable~ we laughed our asses off when one of us missed~ wahahahahha~!!!! Its nice for the girls to come along and say hi while they continued on camwhoring ==~ But they left quite soon and sad Chua still dun want to tag along~ the bowling game was funny and tiring~ 1st game was owned by Chee Yeong but I got a close tie with 3 strikes and 2 spares~ the gang played madly~ Seh Sen plays as though he was participating shotput event~ Sam was kinda off the mood that day, he kept miss and miss and miss again == Seek Sean managed to show some skill in bowling~ and Chee Yeong played great (i thk he lied about the fact it was his 2nd time bowling)~ HELL I CARE ABOUT THAT SON OF A BITCH~ He went on his own monkey mating call and lousy scoring o0o == o0o~ the 2nd game was mine but it was really fun to be cheered by the gang XD~ But after the whole ordeal, I got severe hand tremor and it took at least 2 hours to stop~
Then, HE is finally GONE when he said his sis was waiting for him~ Bon Voyage you piece of trash~!!! Next, we went clothes hunting with Sam in JJ~ Sam tried on clothes and clothes and posing like a star lol~ Cant believe he actually changed clothes with Seek Sean... Both looked so freaking funny~!!! Cant stop laughing that time~ Then we went to Popular and I tagged along with gang with their madness on love guiding books lol~ well its was soo them anyways~ we found a nice new album named "Songs from A Secret Garden"~ its was an album of melodies with sad and melancholic tones~
Finally, its was abt time to hit the road~ We went dinner at Old Town's Coffee~ had nasi lemak, toast with hard boiled egg and ice freeze mocha~ The gang went on chit-chatting and had alot of MEN's TALK~ No puns allowed~!!! I went with the gang to Sam's car to fetch my stuff while the others going to Sam's house for a stayover... Too bad I cant coz I am going with my family to Penang~ Walao Sam~ better watchout when you are driving~ we almost hit a car in the car park ==

Then I went to my car with my driver waiting for me, I had fun chatting with him about good old past~ Yea... I thk everyone will miss the good times in the past but yet sad coz it shall never come back anymore~ as time goes on and on~ Reached home about 8pm, but my time is not over yet~ my parents installed the new CCTV and I had to learn EVERY single thing about it, tired~ and yet I still have to transfer 180gb worth of items into the new external HD~ Fin the whole ordeal at 2am, *faint due to fatigue*~

But yet, I am gonna miss all 5 Betabytes, the jackass gang~ Miss you all and keep in touch ya~! Hope to see you all again in the future~
Poem: H2O

Unlimited transparency,

The world is like a six-winged angel,

When the wind blows,

The windwheel turns,

Just like time goes on and on,

The evening sun melts into the sea~

Fleeting and Everlasting Sorrow~ A Great Song About The Sorrow of LOVE~ Woot~!!!

2008-11-21T05:41:00.000-08:00

Finally~!! The album is finally released~!!!

The album is by UVERworld, named (儚くも永久のカナシ / Hakanaku Mo Towa No Kanashi / Fleeting and Everlasting Sorrow)~ The song was also used as the opening for my fav anime, Gundam 00~

Here are the lyrics for the song, Fleeting and Everlasting Sorrow~ You all can also listen to song by choosing from my music box~ Hope you all enjoy it~!!

Eng-translated lyrics~

Fleeting and Everlasting Sorrow

Vocals: UVERworld

Lyrics: TAKUYA∞

Composition: Katsuya & TAKUYA∞

Arrangement: Katsuya & TAKUYA∞

Before love says that love is, “Too heavy,” rejects comprehension

And turns into hatred…

Just about everything is so, right?

In situations where you get bad penalties, there’s always the reality of covering them up and faking it

In the era of distorted dilemmas

Even we, who should have made a promise together, pass by each other without noticing

I abandoned the fact

That we destroyed each other and understood each otherI

Is this a wreck?

Don’t acknowledge me; even when I confront it

I can’t escape the images from when I fell

I’ll find your eyes and the warmth of your hands

Time and time again

Just about everything is so, right?

In situations where you get bad penalties, there’s always the reality of covering them up and faking it

In the era of distorted dilemmas

Even we, who should have made a promise together, pass by each other without noticing

The city that won’t change even if it’s gone

Won’t seek our salvation, right?

In the guise of someone honest

Everyone is inside of a crumbly crystal

Because I make more and more lies

Love only hurts me always…or so you whispered

You were scared of believing and cried, didn’t you?

Learn your weaknesses and become strong, by believing without fear

You’ll learn of true love, before it turns into hatred, right?

What I wanted

Isn’t this heartless

And contrived world

On the unviewable days without fragments of reason

Lowliness dwelt in my eyes that are tired of seeing

Lies that heal the heart- They exist

But it’s a lie that will steal my heart, right?

Even if I’m to draw closer to love, I’ll only be bitten…or so I whispered

I stopped believing and lived like that

With thoughts that I’m amazed of even if I stand up against despair

It’s fine if I’m clinging onto a brief life

What I wanted

Isn’t this heartless

And contrived thing

A love lost in this city-

If I search for its meaning

I’ll become a little better and be able to move on, right?

Romaji lyrics for the takings too~ XD

儚くも永久のカナシ

Vocals: UVERworld

Ai ga ai o “omosugiru” tte rikai o kobami

Nikushimi ni kawatte iku mae ni…

Nani mo kamo sou daro?

Batsu no warui jijou ni wa itsumo futashite kuwasemono no riaru

Yuganda jirenma jidai de

Yakusokushita hazu no futari sae kizukazu toorisugite yuku

Kowashiatte wakariatteta koto mo

Okizari ni shita

Kore ga nare no hate na no?

Mitomenaide tachimukatta toki mo

Ochite yuku toki no imeeji kara nigedasezu ni

Nando de mo sagashidasu yo

Kimi no me sono te no nukumori o

Nani mo kamo sou daro?

Batsu no warui jijou ni wa itsumo futashite kuwasemono no riaru

Yuganda jirenma jidai de

Yakusokushita hazu no futari sae kizukazu toorisugite yuku

Inaku tatte kawari wa shinai machi wa

Boku no sukui o motome ya shinai darou

Matomo na yatsu ni narisumashite

Dare mo ga kuzuresou na kesshou no naka de

Nando mo uso o kasaneru kara

Ai wa itsumo watashi o kizutsukeru dake…tte kimi wa tsubuyaite

Shinjiru koto ga kowakute naitan daro

Yowasa o shitte tsuyoku nare osorezu shinjiru koto de

Nikushimi ni kawaru mae no hontou no ai o shiru no darou

Hoshigatteta mono wa

Kokoro ga nai tsukurareta

Konna sekai ja nain da yo

Miterarenai riyuu no kakera mo nai hibi

Iyashisa ga yadotteta utsushitsukareta hitomi ni

Kokoro o iyasu uso sore mo ari nante

Demo kokoro o ubau no ga uso darou

Ai ni chikazukou to mo kamitsukareru dake…tte boku wa tsubuyaite

Shinjiru koto o yamete ikitetan da yo

Zetsubou kuratte tatte mo akireru hodo no omoi de

Hakanai inochi shigamitsuite ikya ii

Hoshigatteta mono wa

Kokoro ga nai tsukurareta

Konna mon ja nain da yo

Kono machi de ushinatta ai

Sono imi sagaseba

Sukoshi mashi ni natte susumeru darou

Woot~ SPM is going to be over soon~!! Can't wait to get my greedy little hands on the those games and entertainments~ ahahah~!!! Gambateh all~!!!

~A New Look, A New Hope, A New Desire~ Unlimited Transparency~

2008-11-18T05:44:00.000-08:00

Hi all, sorry for not updating my blog lately /.\ ~ Been crazy about SPM madness XD

It seems I am losing visitors and readers lately T.T ~ I have a request would you plz help me? Please help advertise my blog so I won't lose my hope on blogging ya~

Well currently I had just renovated my blog into a better 1~ I hope it looks better than the former 1~ Hope you all like it though~

Well lately I am kinda obssesed to a new genre of games~ visual novel games XD~ I bought one of them and tried it out (no XXX)~ The game roxx and the storyline was great~ I even cried at some scenarios~ Now I knew why so many anime producers adapted these great games into anime series which turned out to be a big hit~

Among all the visual novels, I think that H2O -Footprints In The Sand- was the greatest 1 so far~ A tragic but yet romance storyline involving a blind young man named Takuma Hirose who lost his eyes due to an unfortunate accident~ The main heroines are Hayami Kohinata who is an orphan who lost her parents in a riot but is quite a recluse to any1~ Hinata Kagura who is the granddaughter of the village's chief who actually lose her twin sister in a river incident~ Lastly Otoha who appears to be a normal girl but actually was a spirit of Hinata who drowned in the river~

Opening movie of the visual novel~

~H2O's story revolves around Takuma Hirose, a blind young male junior-high school student, though the cause for his blindness is undetermined. After his mother died an unexpected death, it left a deep emotional scar on him, which caused him to become very lonely and reserved. Due to this, Takuma and his uncle move from the city out into a rural area and Takuma is enrolled into a new junior-high school. At his new school, he meets several new girls, though three of whom he gets to know the most out of anyone else. They are, the firm and obstinate Hayami Kohinata, the kind and obliging Hinata Kagura, and the cheerful and mysterious Otoha. As Takuma interacts with these girls, his medical condition gradually begins to heal.~

Takuma is the main protagonist of the story. He has a moderately quiet personality partly because he suffers from blindness and for his condition, he carries around a white cane he named "Tomodachi sa" (友田千紗, "Tomodachi sa"?), a pun on the word tomodachi (友達, tomodachi? "friend"). His mother committed suicide which left a deep emotional scar on Takuma. In order to rectify this, he moves to the countryside to live with his uncle. Takuma is naturally friendly and likes to befriend everyone he meets in his new town. There is a rift between the rich and the poor, with Takuma being on the former end of the divide.
Hayami is a girl in Takuma's class who sits next to him. She has an unsociable personality and a sharp attitude towards others, not wanting to become friends. Due to this, she is often bullied and is referred to by her schoolmates as the "cockroach" (ゴキブリ, gokiburi?), but for some reason she does not fight back when being bullied. She has an intense fear of spiders. She is from a poor family and lives alone. Even though she owns a bathing suit, she will not participate in swimming classes because she is poor at it. Hayami's family was rich once because her parents are doctors. Since they charged high prices in medical examinations and were unwilling to take any patients in without the fees, the village people revolted against them, burned their house and kicked them out of the village with the exception of Hayami.
Hinata is the granddaughter of the village headman, and is one of the rich members of town. She is in Takuma's class and is the class representative for her class. She has a kind of obliging personality, and is popular in her school. She has the tendency to fall down and by clumsy, and one time she even fell down a flight of stairs at school, though luckily Takuma was there to break her fall. She refers to Takuma as "Hirose-sama", a very polite form of expression. Her real name is actually Hotaru Kagura (神楽ほたる, Kagura Hotaru?), the younger sister to Hinata — known as Otoha by Takuma. When Hinata drowned, her grandfather forced Hotaru to become Hinata, and made the village people think that it was Hotaru that drowned.Otoha appears to be a normal girl, but she is in fact a spirit, and only Takuma can hear or see her. She is always cheerful, and will appear out of no where, clinging suddenly to Takuma. She refers to herself with the masculine pronoun boku (僕, boku ?), meaning "I". She refers to Takuma as the "Promised Person" (約束の人, Yakusoku no Hito?). It is revealed that Otoha is the real Hinata Kagura who fell into a river and drowned. She took the name Otoha from Hotaru's picture book that she drew herself. Otoha shows Takuma a strange world before disappearing, in this world she is his fiancé. Just before she disappears, she confesses her love for him but says that she is not the one he belongs with.
Finally, I would like to say that I am finally FREE from ADD.MATHS hell~ Woohoo~ But SPM is still 5 days from over~ Can't wait for it and good luck again to all comrades who also fought in this war XD

Final Day of the Betabyte~ A Sad Day~ Miss euch, egal was!

2008-11-01T19:10:00.000-07:00

31st October 2008, the final day of the Betabytes before parting with the old meeting place, 5 BETA Class~ that day we agreed to have a last class lunch before the start of the tedious SPM examinations~

That morning, most of us came to meet each other for the last time before SPM~ As usual, Seh Sen, Chee Yeong and Seek Sean went on their 'chick hunt' at MacDonalds early in the morning~ As goes well in the class, with no teachers, and all of us having usual chit-chat~ Not even a feeling of remorse!?~

Then during breaktime, the gang came back from Mac-D and we had our last break at Sri KL together~ It was kinda sad for all as we had our last bite of Sri KL's terrible food XD~ There, I had my last pack of nasi lemak early that morning with Benny and Sam~ During break, I had my last cup of favourite 'Teh Tarik' while Seh Sen had his last cup of hot Milo~ Can't believe he ever camwhored over a cup of Milo lolz~
After break, finally the moment of parting is just ahead~ We started tearing down the class decoration's which all of us had done so hard to put them up~ And we moved all of the desks and chairs to a corner, which revealed how empty our class is~ Most of us shed some tears during the process~ There I took a last round around our class, hope to remember it for the rest of my life~ There Seh Sen camwhored in front of the 5 Beta class sign XD

Also, we left a sign on the white board behind of the class~ We drew our insignia and left signatures XD~ I left a Geass sign together with my signature coz i just love Code Geass too much XD~ On the same time, Seh Sen scolded CB to Pn. Sanizah as a token of farewell~ WTF~!!??

Then, we headed down for our SPM Briefing~ There we were briefed about SPM rules~ bla bla bla... And then the subject teachers gave their speech and good luck~ I think Pn. Bee Lee's speech was the best and touching 1~

After that, we changed into our normal outing and went out school for last lunch together~ Seh Sen and Chua went off to say goodbye to 'u know who'~ Me, Andre, Seek Sean, Ching Wei and Benny walked to Rakuzen only to find disappointment as it was undergoing renovation~ Tomoe is just way too exp =.=~ Thn we walked another 15 mins to another restaurant but it only opens at night~@! Argh!!

So, we just had our lunch at Noodle Station~ The food was nice, cheap and satisfying~ I ordered a bowl of chicken noodle, banana spilt and caramel coffee ice-blended~ Yum...~ Everyone chit-chatted as we spent the last moments together~ There, I shared my banana spilt with Seh Sen, we shared the banana mouth to mouth~ OMG!!!~

After paying our bills, we went home~ Seh Sen, Ching Wei, Andre, Seek Sean went home on my car~ On the journey, we talked about man's talk and plans after SPM~ We used our common goodbye greeting as one of us went down the car~ 'I don't need you anymore, get lost!!'~ Wahahaha~ And then, the day just ended just like that~ I felt a great feeling of remorse and sadness~
To all friends, I hope to meet you all again in the future~ Sorry for all the mistakes I had done to you all~ I hope our threads of fate and destiny will interwined each other again~ I gonna miss you forever~!!~Good luck in SPM~ Love you all~

~My 17th Birthday~ Thx All Friends For Giving Me This Wonderful Surprise Party~Liebe dich alle und Dank~

2008-10-26T14:15:00.000-07:00

24th October 2008~ Just like normal other Fridays, I went school with a sleepy mood after playing online games since 3am~ But I got the feeling that today will be a different day~ for the class having a class lunch after school~ So me, Andre and Seek Sean decided to go~

After reaching school, the gang started talking among themselves with having me left out~ Well my first thought was just to let it go on as it happens sometimes~ Then I started my chain to increasing level on EMO to listen music on my HP~

After sometime, the gang decided to play truant to Mac-D as school was really boring these few days~ with me, Sam, Andre got left out XD There I get to 2nd level of EMO~ And there was the gang of girls cramping together with their normal chit-chat, as if they look at me as somekind of guy with invisibilty =( ~ After Seh Sen they all came back, I got to chat a little with them about my recent EMO and how I may lose friends if it goes on like this~ Thx guys, I learned alot and promised~

So the level of EMO gets increasing throughout the day as I get to level 7 of my EMO level~ After school ends, I decided to get changed early and walk to Pizza Hut with Sam~ Then Sam wanted to go to a pharmacy to buy some blueberry powder with improves eyesight and I joined him in his search~ After walking the whole row of shops and without hope, we gave up on our search and went to Pizza Hut~

Well, as soon as we reached there, we walked to the 2nd floor~ and then~ 'Happy Birthday To You, Happy Birthday to EJ, Happy Birthday To You~!'~ I was so stunned with the sudden singing of the birthday song and Benny walked to me with a big blueberry cheese cake which bear my name~ I was left speechless for a moment, as tears began to flow into my tear ductus, the crowd pulled me down and I enjoyed a brieft performance~

Then Seh Sen and the gang gave me my so called present~ I got 2 set of condoms for my birthday presnt =.=~ Belgian chocolated and spicy strawberry flavor XD~ If you heard of man's best friend are dogs right, then think of male's best friend XD~ The girls gave me a huge birthday card with numerous greetings and wonderful messages engraved on it~ Love You Guys~ MuackZ~ I swear never to EMO for no reason anymore in my life~

Thx you Andre, Elise, Amy for giving me that wonderful performance =) ~Andre played a guitar version of Fields of Hope (my fav song in GSD) by Rie Tanaka while Elise and Amy chipped in their voices~ Man I love you all~ MuackZ~ One piece of advice to Andre, ' Talents Are Not Meant To Be Hidden Forever '~ You should show to the world of your talents ya, you shall always have my support =)~ Man~ I couldn't help dropping a few drops of tears during the course~
After that, I blew away the candles with some help from Seh Sen~ I wished that we shall always be friends forever~ Thx you all for the cake, the rich flavor of blueberry jam and smooth texture of the cheese really meltZ my heart~ We then ordered a few large pizzas to enjoy~ Crazy Benny ordered another double-cheesed, cheese-crusted Hawaiian Supreme for us~ Man, nearly got overloaded by too much CHEESE~

During the event, the gang decided to buy wristbands for themselves as a symbol of celebrating my birthday and we shall always remember each other~ ' Charity A Day Keeps The Devil Away!? ' ( don't understand also XD )~ Too bad most of us had to get home early, but really, I wanna thx you all from the bottom of my heart~

After that, we went home~ with Seh Sen, Seek Sean, Andre and Chua cramped at the passenger seat of my mum's Harrier XD~ we enjoyed so much talking in the car until we reached Seh Sen's frontdoor~

After I reached home, I on my MSN to chat with the gang again~ only to find Chua and Seh Sen video calling all of us and camwhore in the class blog~ Walao, going too far d le~ but honestly, its was a great day~

Score of the day:

Making me EMO = 9 out of 10

Cheat me on that long walk = 8 out of 10

Surprising me = 10 out of 10

Performance = 10 out of 10

Make me cry = 9.5 out of 10

Meal and chatting = 9 out of 10

Please all come to school on Wednesday, I wanted to give you all a token of my appreciation of what you all done for me~ I wanna thx you all again for the wonderful surprise party and I hope our friendship shall last for eternity~

-Friendship is a gold treasured above all life's treasures-

-by Ecthel, Riviera: The Promised Land-

~Graduation Night~ Eine Nacht daran zu erinnern, ewig

2008-10-21T00:33:00.000-07:00

~Graduation Night of Sri KL on Friday, 17th October 2008~

A sad day to be remembered indeed, the day which marked my graduation from secondary life~

Early that evening, I changed into my coat and waited for Andre to follow him to Sheraton Hotel~ We reached Sheraton about 4.30pm and to our surprise, we met CMD 1st~ What a way to start my chain reaction of sadness and despair~

After registering, we waited for teachers and others~ Most of the gang arrived about half an hour later and everyone started camwhore mania XD~ Of coz I joined them in this mania of madness~
I also met some of our old teachers like Pn. Zauwiyah, Pn. Norlida and Ms. Jesminder~ At 6pm, everyone finally settled down on each respective seats~ Luckily CMD was not on the same seat with us, wonder what got into his head though @@~

The ceremony started with the entrance of the VIPs, Mrs Lim Bee Lee came late before them and the crowd applaused for her louder than the VIPs XD~ Then Mr Chew started with his usual dull speech (bla...bla...bla...)~ Hanif Merican is no better than him coz he gave excuse for his short speech (Mr Chew took away much what he wanted to say =.=)~

The event started with the graduation ceremony of classes (my class was the second last)~ After half an hour of clapping and sitting, most of us went out the ballroom to relax and camwhoring along the way~ When it's our class's turn, we lined up as Anisha delivered her superb speech and took our report card and graduating certificate from the class teacher~ Elise escorted Pn. Deva down hands by hands XD~ What a scene~!!!

Finally, dinner was served~ YES~!!! Been waiting for more than 3 hours though =.= We enjoyed the dinner with students from different classed performed their best performances and watched the classes's MMPs~

As time flies, we enjoyed ourselves to the extreme~ Just after the 3rd course of the meal, every graduates stood up and went camwhore with all the others graduates and respective teachers~ Of coz 5 BETA graduates went along with the mania too~ During the course, I managed to reconciled a little with ZZ~ We both apologized and hugged each other~ XD

Finally its time to part~ all the attendants stood up and sang the school song with honor~ We also sang Auld Lang Syne which most of us started crying~ Well I still managed to hold back my tears for the time being~ We bid farewell to each other in which most of us went home aftermath~ While waiting for Andre's mum, we shook and hugged farewell to teachers, there my tear level was overloaded and couldn't hold back my sad emotions and started crying~ I shook hands with Mr.Lim, Mrs. May Wing, Pn. Umi, Pn. Deva, Ms.Jesminder, Mr. Abu, Pn. Rosila and many other teachers~

Can't believe I cried all the way home, guess that is wat caused my intense headache~ Anyways, it was really a memorable night for all~

Hope to see you guys after SPM though, MISS YOU GUYS~!!! T.T

~Even we were separated milleniums or light years away, as long as we have feelings for each other, our hearts will still be linked together, Soul Link~

~by Shuhei Aizawa, Soul Link~

Mad About Tagging =o= ~ fainting ~ Sind Sie verrückt nach Jungs Tagging?

2008-10-18T20:39:00.000-07:00

Tagged by Andre ~ *fainting* gonna get crazy about tagmania ~ @@

Tag 1:

(by Andre)

RULES:

~Pick you birth month

~Strike out anything that doesn't suits you (I dunno how... But almost all suits me)

~Bold the best that suits you

~Copy to your own bloggy, with all twelve months

~Tag 5 people (like hell I will)

~Ich Bin, October Kerl~

~Loves to chat

~Loves those who loves them

~Loves to take things at the center (nah, I like Left better)

~Inner and physical beauty (nah, I am ugly =( )

~Lies but doesn't pretend (mayb...)

~Gets angry often (my record: get mad 25 times in 2 hours, got bloodlust)

~Treats friends importantly (I luv my friends but not myself XD )

~Always making friends (if I was given the chance)

~Easily hurt but recovers easily (I think most classmates know)

~Daydreamer (I imagined too much but never take action =o=)

~Opinionated (Hold on to your own opinions)

~Does not care of what others think (Got meh? I cared abt ppl's feelings)

~Emotional (Get EMO often)

~Decisive (I am SO NOT...)

~Strong clairvoyance (I roxx in strategy RPG games)

~Loves to travel, the arts and literature (Enjoy reading... manga and anime freak)

~Touchy and easily jealous (Yes but I can control it)

~Concerned (I concern about friends but not myself)

~Loves outdoors (Who say... I luv indoors... playing game)

~Just and fair (I am ugly and stupid =( )

~Spendthrift (I spent more than RM50K in models, manga, games, anime...etc)

~Easily influenced (Get mad about new games)

~Easily loses confidence (Yea I am... Get depressed easily)

~Loves children (Luv my brothers XD )

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills.Talk ative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties instudy ing. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

I TAG:

~no one~

I will blog about graduation night later~ Too much to write~

~Thx all friends for that fabulous and great night, MISS YOU GUYS~

Way To The Prime Star ~ Warum bin ich nicht so sehr gehasst?

2008-10-16T03:18:00.000-07:00

Why am I being hated so much~? Why am I being neglected~?

I guess if its just me, or is it the cruel reality? If its the reality, then fine then~ I guess I am the unwanted being of God's creation... So masterpieceful, but yet comes with a serious defect~

Friends refused to talk to me today~ The girls refused to talk to me and won't even smile back at me~ Yea... Yea... I know I am the most suckiest friend that one being would ever have...

I suck than any1 in this world... I am cocky sometimes, selfish, greedy and anything that you all could ever think of~ I tend to go to the extreme to get things done, which I think sparked some anger among friends...

Aww well~ I guess I am really unwanted in this world~ This world is just not the place I was born~ I wish I was born somewhere far far away, a few light years from this little blue planet~ Maybe I should just end my stinking life after the graduation ceremony tml~ After the final event (school anthem), I shall pull out a gun and shoot myself in front of my friends and teachers, with mad laughter and never ending flow of tears in my face~ Ahahah~! AHAHAHAHAHAHAH~!!! (mad laughter)

I heard of a distant star~ called the Prime Star~ where no worries existed... Maybe thats the only place in this big, dark galaxy where I can live~ Way to the Prime Star~

Why do emotion existed~? Emotions are 'things' that caused so much depression, sadness, anger, frustration in my life~? My heart aches the very moment I stepped on my life, while waiting for the sands of time to stop flowing~ I guess I should die of a broken heart~ along to hell with all the doubts I had~

Tml graduation day~ I shall go with a gloomy mood~ Can't take in anymore happiness in my life~ tends to die with a broken heart~ plz forget about me~ cried sorrowfully and silently...

A Week Full Of Thoughts, Might Wanna Quit Blogging ~ Ein Leben mit Interwined unabwendbares Schicksal und das Schicksal

2008-10-09T08:06:00.000-07:00

Life is such a complex but yet special thingy ~ A journey so short but yet interwined by countless strings of fate and destiny ~ Such short but yet sad journey, is it all being determined by God since the moment we were born?

This week is nothing but a hell of boringness, stressfulness and dreadfulness... Most students dint come to school (probably studying for SPM at home)... I came to school so I could spend the last few weeks of precious time with the gang before our inevitable sad separation... Lucky CMD was absent for 2 days, we had so much fun mocking him XD Wahahahahahahahaha~!!!

During the monotony of this week's boredom, I spent alot of time thinking alot of questions regarding my life, purpose of born, feeling of guilt, lacking of friendshipness and over-EMOing... However, I wasn't able to define my recent answers in words for you readers to know...

This week we got back most of our SPM trials results... Man, how suck can I be... I dun even wanna talk about it XD sry ya I wanna tell =( ... Well the questions that stroke my brain is my life in recent years... I found I had changed during the course of these years... From a timid, gentle, humble, smart assistant head prefect, I had turned into vicious, mad, vulgar, idiotic normal student... I can still remember how my friends in F2 make use of my prefect position to escape verdicts, but now I had changed alot... Is it due to external stimuli, or is it my brain maturing which gonna make me the future me the person I am right now? I guess I shouldn't blame it on other people coz they gave me so much joy in life and helped shape the me today... Well, I guess I am changing in my own way that God gave me, infecting me with IPD (Inferior Personality Disorder) which turns me ruthless and mad... Stay out ya~!!

2nd question is my purpose of born~ I had seen many different people since I was born, yet they gave a familiar feeling that I couldn't feel it inside me... People were born to do something in their life, even its meager or major, important or unimportant... But yet I could not think of it in my life... Maybe I was born different? Or am I a nobody as seem in my fate? Like my friends, I could feel them becoming future successful people, from musicians, businessmen, engineers or even scientists~!! But I cannot know myself, what should I be? What should I do? Should I just let fate toy with my remaining life? Or should I just end my own life with my own blood-stained hands? Should the world be a better place with me around...
3rd question really hit me hard in my nerves and mind... I felt more feelings of guilt during these past years, I can't feel my old innocence, holiness and pureness... Guess I had changed into something dreadful and ugly, like a ghoul or vampire... Or is it I had committed more sins more than I had even remembered? I guess that is the most reasonable answer so far that I could ever thought of... These years I had committed countless sins that I would not dare to tell, eg. lying, stealing, blaming and even murdering... These 'things' had stained my life greatly, turning it into someting darker than black... Guess I am going to hell rather than heaven after I left this world of countless feelings and occurences...

4th and 5th question regards to my friends... I felt like I am becoming a recluse and anti-social... Friends, you know what am I talking about... I tend to go EMO during friends having a cheerful conversation, probably feeling that I am unwanted, rejected or it is some place that does not belong me... is it my illness, destiny or willingness to do these things? EMO is something that is pretty weird but yet mysterious, it gives people different feelings and outcomes... I might make people sad, happy, mad, weird when I EMO... Is it my relationship with them or is it interwined destiny and fate? I dunno... but I still yearn for a good answer...

Well, next week's Friday is our school's graduation ceremony for all F5 students... I hoped to have one last good moment with friends but I guess its almost impossible if you are on the same table with people you despised and hates... Can't believe CMD is going to sit with us, we the gang will take any aggresive if he tends to destroy our happy atmosphere... ZZ (I really dunno what happen between us until makes us despised each other) will sit on the same table too... ARGH, guesss I had to coped with all these for 5 hours...

I guess that's all for this post, I might wanna quit blogging... reasons:

a) declining visitors

b) lack of confidence

c) feeling of being an idiot

d) lack of available friends

e) its a place where I shouldn't belong

I hope you guys don't mind coz its my very own decision... Abschied und Dank...

Replying A Belated Taggy ~ Aufrichtig entschuldigen für die verspätete Antwort

2008-09-29T21:49:00.000-07:00

~ Tagged by Elise Cho Pui Mun ~

~ Plz visit her blog at eliselavender.blogspot.com ~ Thx ~

1. What's my relationship with her ~ ?

a) Monitor of my class, 5 BETA

b) Mad blogger friend who can never stop blogging XD

c) Members of 5 Betabyte clan

d) Hardcore jap song lovers

e) Anime freako

2. Impressions towards her ~

a) Friendly and easily approachableb)

b) Mad music listener during class =.=

c) Responsible and caring

d) Loves EMO for obvious reasons (not to be named) =P

e) Faithful MSN user and blogger

3. Most memorable thing she did to me ~

a) Listened to my personal problems, helped me to cope with it

b) Teach me about blogging (might not be here without her)

c) Asking candies and chocolates from me (getting fatter) XD

4. Most memorable words that she spoke to me ~

a) EJ, I want candy ~

5. If she is my lover, I will ~

a) That is absoultely impossible coz she already got 1 BF... To be honest, just hang out with her like any other couples out there ~ might make her a more crazier anime fan that she used to be XD

6. If she is my lover, she gotta improve it ~

a) Anime, anime soundtrack, gaming, emo...

7. If she becomes my enemy, the reason is ~

a) Win me during exams

b) Scold me for no apparent reason =(

8. Most desirable thing to inflict on her ~

a) To have her remember me for her life XD (as a friend la of coz)

9. Overall impression of her ~

a) A particular teenage girl of modern days

b) Tends to forget the class control book XD

10. How do I think people around thinks about me ~ ?

a) Smart and lazy but a mad gamer

b) Suicidal and crazy

c) Likes to EMO for no apparent reasons

d) Deny my existence

e) HATE ME =(

11. Reasons to hate myself ~

a) Brought illnesses to my weak body

b) EMO to friends

c) Tends to apologize after a stupid mistake

d) Make friend with CMD (OMGWTFBBQ~!!!???)

e) Being selfish and greedy

12. Reasons to love myself ~

a) Badass RPG fan

b) All-time manga fan

c) Listen to nth but anime / jap songs

d) Anime freak

e) Anti-social

13. Ideal person I wanna be ~

a) My great dad =)

b) Stalwart harbringer of The World's Destruction

14. For people who card about me, I wanna tell them to ~

a) Thx for your caring attitude towards me, but too bad I am a mad person who believes in destiny too much... I hope to end my stinkin' life with my own dreaded ways {wuahahahhahaha, evil laugther >:)}

15. Friends to tag ~ (very lazy)

a) Andre

b) Elise

c) Amy

d) 5 Betabyte

e) My lil bro

16. Relationship with (a) ~

a) Distant cousin

b) Friends since Standard 2

c) Anime fan

d) Jap song lovers

e) Classmates

17. Relationship with (b) ~

-Listed in question 1.-

18. Relationship with (c) ~

a) Manga lovers =D

b) Jap song lover

c) Classmates

19. Relationship with (d) ~

a) Classmates

b) Bunch of jackasses loafing around together XD

c) Consist of diff gangs but cope along well

20. Relationship with (e) ~

a) Most fav bro out of 3 lil bros

b) Manga and anime lover =)

c) Great helper

d) Went through harsh times together

e) Loves each other XD

The End of A Trial, The Beginning of Another One ~ Ewige Folter und leiden

2008-09-26T01:21:00.000-07:00

Woohoo~!!! Yippee~@!!!! SPM trials is finally OVER~!!!! After 2 weeks of endless torture and suffer, finally the ordeal had been served... To be honest, SPM trial's over marks the beginning of the real challenge itself, SPM... =o= However, its time to throw every reference and exercise book aside for the time being... and enjoy the short 1 week HOLIDAYS~!!!

SPM trials had really drove me nuts, especially in Ad Maths, my weak mind had been tortured to the core during the whole time... Its because I suk in Ad Maths... Bah!! Who cares about Ad Maths, just another stupid exam coming up and I will be forever gone from Ad Maths hell life... Wahahahah~!!!

Plans for holiday : To be honest, I really dunno what should I do you know? This Sunday going to Sunway Pyramid with friends to enjoy Shogun Sushi and KTV whole day to celebrate the end of SPM trials, I will also bring a few friends from Banting along to meet with Sri KL friends XD ( Can't wait for it!! )... Might also go out to meet with old friends and talk about life... For the weekdays, I might play PC games whole day... Chibi Online (slacked for a long time d, friends in game already pissed, so sorry frens >.<)... offline PC games like The Sword of Xuan Yuan: Clouds of the Han Dynasty... Might try out a new genre of PC games (visual novel)... The game cost alot =o= ( already in a very tight budget this month), so might put this plan for the December holidays after SPM =) Of course dun forget to study for coming SPM examination (my future depends on it ~o~)... bla bla bla...

During SPM trials, you know... A new story came out and its a big hit among the gang... The story is entitled 'CMD's special features that you never expected'... GOD DAMN THAT IDIOT!!! GO TO HELL, YOU FUCKING PIECE OF BULLSHIT!!!... I can tell you during the whole SPM trials, he is even stickier than glue... Everyday when we the gang tried to study, he sure butt in and ask some irrelevant questions... Haizz... This I can tolerate, but with him sitting in front of me and walking around endlessly!? He sure had distracted and make me less concentrated towards studies... Even during lunch, he sure try and sit with us for lunch, WTF he keep banging the table when we joked... just like a wild chimpanzee from zoo ( I think he is from Mars )..

Even if he ever studied, I doubted those knowledge went into his brain... He is a FUCKER who tends to act smart... Trying to brag about what he just studied in a cocky way... ARGH... CMD ar... you had surely evolved... I found lately that CMD had a new feature, he can emit Gamma-rays~!!! OMGWTFBBQ~ No wonder I felt clueless like my brain cells died when he ever passed by me... However, we developed a counter-measure that we just evade him when he ever comes... And worst, he mocked Esther when she was studying... Hey~!!~ Looks who's talking? I think the best miracle that ever happened is if he ever studied at all~

But thats not the most exotic one, I found he had learnt how to set traps...! As you all know, my whole gang despised CMD soo much that dun even wanna go near him... Just Thursday, we purposely eat our lunch slowly so he finish his faster... Then, he woke up and said he gonna study as class... We were so happy coz we can study in the library undisturbed... Just me and Andre about to enter the library, Seek Sean (he gained the ability *True Sight*) quickly asked us to scramp... We wondered why until he told us the reason... CMD is in the library, Sam and Seh Sen had fallen into his genius trap... Diuzz... (praying for you both)... So we proceeded to study at class, but soon go back to library to rescue our comrades (obviously CMD fucker is not in the list)... Wow, I finally realize that I shouldn't underestimate the evolution theory by Darwin XD

Well, my favourite anime Code Geass R2 is closing its curtain this Sunday... Farewell Lelouch... But Gundam 00 Season 2 is airing the following week, Woohoo~!!! I guess that explains why I changed my blog's look right? Hehe... Let's enjoy the HOLIDAYS~!!!!

*P.S : If you ever wondered what German words I wrote, try out the language tool provided by Google (http://www.google.com.my/language_tools?hl=en)

Tortured to Insanity~ Requiem von Add Mathematik

2008-09-22T13:17:00.000-07:00

Woohoo~ Finally D-Day's over for me~ Add. Maths...

I was never good in Ad.Maths, nor or never in the future...

Today, the paper was tough, even for Seh Sen (he emoed after the 1st paper =o=)... At 1st I thought the paper was kinda okay (at least I won't fail), but after I finished the 3rd question, Judgement Day had arrived...

When I found out that I dunno how to do the 4th question, kinda panicked and started a mad chain reaction to my own hell... Keep wondering how to do those questions though... Kept my head spinning around the clock and return in nothing in the end~

It just goes to show you that about how am I NOT SYNCHORIZED with Ad.Maths questions!? Not even a 15% success rate!? No matter how much I study and how many formulae I had memorized, I just couldn't come to a liking of Add. Maths!?

Life since Form 4 was nothing but torture when I got my hands on that set of dreadful questions consisted of shapes, equations, numbers, unknowns and many other Ad.Maths applications!? I hate them, cause no matter how I study, I will never score in Ad.Maths!?

Darn Andre == How the hell you study Ad.Maths!? We been doing only SPM level questions, but you had soared high above us to STPM level questions == OMFG!!!!~ I think you are the only one still left with enough time to do checking for the paper and even do sketching on it!? MY GOD!~ Everyone so bloody hate you after the paper lolz...

Anyhow, I made myself clear... I hate Ad.Maths!? No matter what, where, when, or even watever...~!!! Only one more torture to end Ad.Maths hell life!? I swear that I will never take Ad.Maths or even involved in any GOD DAMNED Ad.Maths formulae after secondary life!? Wahahahahahahahhaha~~!!!!! {Mad d, taken to the insane asylum =)}

Feel like committing sucide after each Ad.Maths exam ==

At first during Ad.Maths exams, I felt like dying when I couldn't solve most of the questions... 1st I think about a knife (any sharp object), then a noose to hang myself, then a bucket full of hot charcoal to burn myself, next drinking poison, jumping from a tall building and last a fully automatic pistol to blow up my own brain~ =)

Not just that, whenever I think about my percentage being pulled down by Ad. Maths, I think about suicide or even dropping this FUCKING subject from my SPM selections... However, fear of parents and passion of guilt make me continue on with my terrible Ad.Maths embedded life... ARGH...~~!!!! Dunno how long more I can take on...~

Good luck to SPM candidates, dun let the Ad.Maths doctor find you...~

Borned To Be Alone~ Der Wille zur Macht

2008-09-13T07:18:00.000-07:00

... What am I borned for~? Is this my destiny~? Or is it just fate fooling around with me~? Life took another toll for the worst after I quarelled with my mum~? But this time even my beloved brothers and father had backed my mum~ leaving me with no one... But I stand firm that I am innocent~ for the battle that knows no ends~

I found that I am getting rejected from my fellow friends and classmates~ They dun pay much attention to me lately~ Once they dint even invited me to basketball session, I thought they gonna invite me via SMS but they forgotten to~ which makes me think how important I am to them~ Classmates are about the same thing, they dun like me~ They dun put much of me in the class magazine nor blogspots~ What have I done that makes me so being disliked or hated?

Yea... I know that I had been a recluse or anti-social since I was born~ I dun like to do much outdoor activities or going occasions with my family~ Which make my existence minimal... Just 3 months ago, I went to a massive family reunion of my father's family and my dad asked me to greet my relatives~ I greeted about 10 of them until one of them asked me who am I? 'Did I know you?' he said~ My dad heard this and intoduced me to him (my 6th uncle)... He replied I dun even know that u have an eldest son...!? Those words pierced my heart deepy, but I managed to hold back my tears until on our way back~ I weeped silently in my dad's car, thx dad for comforting me~ (You are The BEST~~~!!!)

Thats not the end of it yet~ I also dun like to join family parties or reunions~ Once my cousin celebrated her success of straight As in PMR, many of her friends and my family joined~ I went there to congratulated her, but I went home 15 mins later after having just a cup of orange juice... The reason for this is that I dun have any1 to talk with, many of my cuz's friends stared at me and talked sumthing about me (I dun wanna know), my relatives dun even greet me there~ Since that event, I sweared to myself that I will never go to any relative's occasion anymore~ For I stand alone~! The will to power relies only on yourself, for u can never rely on sumbody else~

On the second hand, SPM trials is just 2 days ahead but I haven't study much about it also =P Bah~! SPM trials only wat... not SPM also~ lolz jkjk == Screw myself for dun paying much attention to SPM trials... Anyways, good luck to all my fellow friends and classmates~

'The Chronicles of CMD: The CMD Strikes Back'... CMD is back~ And this time more aggresive, badass and meaner... My gang and I had never despised or hate him this much~~~!!! He sucks honestly, stupid, dumbass, thick-faced, lazy, noob gamer, loves to 'Lan C', 'Kang' loves to cut in people's conversation~! Just Thursday, he cut in our conversation while we were having a conversation about the graduation day, he suddenly cut in and say sumthing about computer hardware~ WTF~~!!! Did he even know wat are we talking about? And then when we were having Chemistry lesson, he came and just pulled a chair and sat in between me and Sam~ GOD DAMM HIM TO HELL~ He came not to learn but to SLEEP~!? So damm fucking thick-faced fuker, he still came and acted nothing even he know how the gang depised him~!? ARGH!!! And worst, he blocked the view of me and Andre of the whiteboard... FUCK9 HIM la... I bet if you use a gamma-ray radiator at full force, you can't even penetrate the face of his~ ==

Btw, my passion for game shall never die~ I luv games so much and I spent RM500+ on new games and online games lately~ I might go learn Japanese sumtime after SPM coz I wanted to try a new genre of PC games... Bishojo games or commonly known as visual novel games... Animated-style dating sims games ( the characters are so pretty and cute, the storyline roxx!) Too bad there aren't much translation of these games in marketing of Chinese nor English... Visual novel games are nice... so many titles like AIR, CLANNAD, School Project, Prime Stella, D.C, True Tears, Fate Stay Night and many many more~ XD (A lof of H-scenes too, hehe... No puns allowed~!)

Well... I thinks that's all for this post~ See you all soon and good luck all for SPM and trials~XD

Tales of Vesperia... To Enforce One's Justice...

2008-08-30T03:20:00.001-07:00

Hehe... Finally another game from my favourite Tales series...

The name for the series this time is 'Tales of Vesperia'

But why is it exclusive for the XBox 360 when I am going to get a PS3 after SPM T.T

Anyways, I will try to play it no matter what it takes for my passion for game shall never die...

Story:~

The people of Terca Lumireis rely on Blastia, ancient technology with a wide array of properties, to carry out their daily lives in peace. Cities use Blastia to perform day-to-day processes such as drawing water, while knights and guild members use Blastia to kill monsters threatening ordinary citizens. Most importantly, Blastia is used to create barriers. Because monsters overindulge in Aer and become powerful and dangerous as a result, barriers are needed to prevent them from entering the cities. However, because Blastia protect and shelter people from the dangers of the world, they have prevented most citizens from exploring what lies beyond city walls.
Because he is confined by the protection of barriers, Yuri Lowell longs to journey the outside world like his childhood friend Flynn Scifo. Flynn is a knight working for the empire, and thus is allowed to leave the city to protect citizens from harm. Yuri was once a knight with those same ideals, but because he hated the way the government enforced things, he retired and instead served the poor using his own sense of "justice." When a Blastia regulating the water supply is stolen from the lower quarters of the capital, Yuri takes matters into his own hands, only to be thrown in jail. There, he encounters the sheltered Estelle, who decides to help him capture the Blastia thief so that she can leave the castle that has confined her for many years and explore the world herself.

Yuri Lowell ~ Main protagonist/hero of Tales of Vesperia

Estellise Sidos Heurassein 'Estelle' ~ Main heroine of Tales of Vesperia

Btw, I found that opening for the game roxx and I decided to upload the video as well as the lyrics so that everyone can enjoy... Enjoy plz~~!!!

Tales of Vesperia Opening Movie

Full version of the song and original PV by the singer

Lyrics:

Reaching up for no man’s land

To take a breath and take a chance

I walk a thousand nights to change the world

Where to go? When to stop?

Who to trust? What to say?

I found them all, just need someone to share

It’s now in the dusk every day to everyone

Ain’t so strong, I ain’t so strong to go on

Living in the past is not the way to live

I wish you could hear me say that I miss you

Why were we there back to back?

Why were we there face to face?

I must be the light when you’re in the dark

If you lose me somewhere, and your tears are in the air

I will ring a bell until you feel me by your side

Looking up into the sky, looking for the reason

Why I’m here, and why you can’t be here

Who’s to hate? Who’s to blame?

Who’s to hurt? Who’s to love?

Who decides? Why we can’t we be the same?

Trying to believe walking down the lonesome road

Ain’t so far, I ain’t so far from you

Staying the way you are means solitude

I wish you were here and shook off my fear

Why were we there back to back?

Why were we there face to face?

I must be the light when you’re in the dark

If I lose you somewhere, and I’m still hanging in there

I will ring a bell until you feel me by your side

What has been in the mix too long?

There’s the peace when you’re at war

Heads or tails, you and I

Light and dark, ups and downs

What is there in the middle? What’s there to divide us?

If you’re hurt, cry and say, "Can’t you see you're my other half?"

Why were we there back to back?

Why were we there face to face?

I must be the light when you’re in the dark

If you lose me somewhere, and your tears are in the air

I will ring a bell until you feel me by your side~

~Ring A Bell, Bonnie Pink

A Day To Be Remembered... 5 BETA Class Farewell Dinner

2008-08-22T19:06:00.000-07:00

(took this pic from Amy's bloggy XD)
15 August 2008, 5 Betabytes having our class farewell dinner at Sunway Atrium Lounge...
That afternoon, I took a cab myself to Sunway Pyramid while waiting for the others to reach about 3 hours later... It was boring to be alone in the shopping centre, managed to loiter all around Sunway Pyramid all by MYSELF... Bought mangas, soundtracks, anime, movies and play in the arcade center... Really wished Andre was with me (his father disallowed him to come)... Bought tickets for the movie Meet Dave for classmates...
At 2pm, I had lunch alone at Ajisen Ramen until Elise called me to give her the movie tickets... Dang she should had told me that she was coming with her bf so I had to go rebuy the tickets for the couple a few rows in front of us... It really doesn't matter as long as she is happy =)
After the movie, I changed into my formal outfit which was really FORMAL... Felt myself like a weirdo among my classmates... The boys looked cool and the girls looked gorgeous XD
Dinner started at 7pm sharp, had a few appetizers while watching the Beijing Olympics badminton semi-finals between Lee Chong Wei and Korea's Lee Hyun-Il... Everyone cheered and clapped after Lee Chong Wei won the match XD... The food was great, credits to Jun Sean, u roxx!?
While having dinner, can't help myself seeing what the girls eat and laughed when they ate something fattening XD We also took some pictures together, it was really memorable... Everyone chit-chatted and helped themselves with delicious serving of food available at the buffet... It was all well until some guys I despised came, but I took little atttention to them... BAH!!!
After dinner, me, Sam, Seek Sean and Ching Wei took a stroll around the mall, trying out some clothes as well as some tux XD Sam can't help to act cool while in the fitting room XD
At 10pm, we parted ways... waited for my driver at the main entrance while seeing some classmates off XD Waved BB to them... Dang! I don't expect that hanging with the whole class and some best friends can be this fun!! Really hoped our times will be longer thought T.T
We still have only 3 months left to meet each other and SPM... Good luck to you guys and please treasure our memories together... Miss you guys!!!!!!

Replying A Belated Tagged...

2008-08-07T07:46:00.000-07:00

The people who tagged me:
Elise and Amy

Relationships with them:
Friends... Classmates... Life Saviour... A Messiah to Me XD

5 impressions towards them:
1. Friendly
2. Likes to play with handphones alot during class ><
3. Great friends and person to be with at anytime @@
4. Responsible at all times
5. Always helpful

Most memorable things they done for me:
Teached me about blogging and chatting at MSN @@ Without them, I may not even know the existence of BLOG!? [of coz Andre helped me alot too =)]

Most memorable words they say to me:
Stop being so emo and sensitive... Get a LIFE!

If they are your lifelong friends, what would you...?
I would be so happy coz having 2 talktative and helpful friends to help me =)

If they ever be your archenemies, what would you...?
I will avoid them but no harm shall be done...

Best overall impression of them:
Talkative!? Stop playing with handphones during class ><

How do I feel about the people around me...?
I am glad of the everyone I know in this short life... Even though there are some whom I despised, but yet its still an experience for me...

Gang that I liked:
My own Chinese gang (Seh Sen, Me, Seek Sean, Andre, Benny, Sam, Ching Wei)
Elise gang, dunno what name... (Elise, Amy, Anisha, J-Anne, Esther, Nisha, William Twins, Mandy, Michelle)

Person I hated:
Myself (dun doubt it, its the absolute truth T.T)

Ideal person I adored:
My dad (strong, brave, strong-minded and heart, hardworking, caring, friendly, helpful, and many many more to write about my great father)

The persons I wanted to tag the most:
1) Elise
2) Amy
3) Andre
4) Lik Pin
5) Cheryl
6) Hong Shen and Geng Yong
7) Betabytes of 5 Beta 2008

Subject wanted to improve:
Add.Maths... (obviously I suks in it =P)

Dunno what to write d... BB...
Thx to Elise for borrowing her tag's ideas...
Thx and sorry for what I have done in the past...

CMD...A Moron Stickier Than Any Glue Existed...

2008-07-30T02:49:00.000-07:00

Diuz... Just after we forgave that idiot for 3 weeks, and there goes CMD again...
We took pity on him and forgave him for whatever shit he done to us for the past months with one condition that he will never repeated the same mistakes... But I doubted that he will actually take heed of his promise, and yet its came true...
This morning when we are having a fun talk about Meetoto (casual online game), he suddenly cut in with 'Hey, hey, hey, u know hor that my sister got an account in Meetoto and she got alot of $$, so I dun hv to worry about $$ in Meetoto'... Bigshot har... Like WE even wanna invite him to join in our fun Meetoto game gang... Then he kept lan c all day long like he owns the planet...
Then breaktime, we are having our weekly tuna sandwich party, we didn't really invite him and he just took on a seat like that... He ate the most with 3 breads and most tuna in the cans... Like we even want him to join us... Its not the 1st time d coz he joined in for 3 times already... What a THICK-FACED FUCKER!!!!... He didn't even contribute anything for the tuna sandwich party, not even a single piece of tuna, coupon or even bread!!!... And he just come in like he owns the party!?... FUCK 9 HIM LA!!!... And worst, when some of us wanna take another piece of bread, he just snatched away the whole loaf, took 1 for himself and then throw the loaf bread like feeding stray dogs... NIA SAI...
This is the worst mistake he done... He followed us to anywhere we went, even the toilet, just like a dog begging for food!?... To tell the truth, I think he is stickier than any glue that ever existed... During Co-co, he yelled at me 'Hey EJ, wait for me coz I wanna follow u to ur Co-co place'... Like hell I care about him and I ran to my bus!?... I don't really want him to join us during Co-co at the Cookery Club... And he just budged in like that, like afraid of being abandoned...(I had already abandoned him since the the CMD nickname being created)... Pity Seh Sen, Seek Sean and Sam were unable to join me and Benny at the Cookery Club coz he came on following...
I found out that he liked to be in the lead, I was walking in front of the gang and he ran past him and started walking normal like he lead the gang... Like the gang even wanted him to be one of us... *SPIT*... Pity Seh Sen coz he is CMD's prime following target, follows him to wherever he go just like glue...His nickname I had upgraded to:
C=Commanding-jerk
M=Mad But Sticky
D=Dumbass DOG

or

C=Call
M=Me
D=Dog

I wonder when he will ever get out of my life... My life been miserable and he made it worst for me... God and Heavens above, please get that person of my life... Shoot down a thunderbolt and you will get free barbequed dog for breakfast =) Like I even want to touch/smell/see it XD

A Sigh of Relief After 2nd Monthly Test...

2008-07-23T02:46:00.000-07:00

Phew... What a relief...

4 days of long, hard life finally came to an end today... (2nd monthly test)

I don't expect good results from this time because I din't even study =P

(click to enlarge)

XD My friends and I came out with our very own first EMO contract...

Where we all had EMO so everyone could study and concentrate in peace...

However, things doesn't turn out quite as expected because we just couldn't stand quiet atmospheres and no-talking communities...Hahahaha...

We managed to uphold the contract for the 1st 2 days and then things went haywire...

But who cares, we had fun though!? Whahahahahaha...

Haizz... Wonder what can be done to get rid of my playful habit...

Got too obsessed with online games and PC games... I think I had used almost RM 10K on online game cards and PC games...
Recently the game I ordered from Taiwan had just arrived and I just couldn't stop playing it because I love PC games... And its original... cost me RM 120.00 @@ (My wallet =.=")
The game is a RPG type game... named Wind Fantasy XX...
The game company had been getting the Game Star Awards for 5 years straight since the run of the game series of Wind Fantasy @@

Anyways, I heard the new Chinese movie ChiBi was a big hit on the screen!!!
Too bad I haven't got the chance to watch it yet =( But I will get it somehow XD
The movie will also have its very own online game (ChiBi online) where the open Beta will start at 6th August 2008... Can't wait for it!!
You all would probably think why I din't study for SPM even its just 2 months away...
Bah!!! I dun care much about SPM because life is meant for enjoy right?
Woohoo!!!! Lets enjoy our lifes!!!

Btw, plz visit my class's new blog: 5beta2008.blogspot.com

A Charity Fiesta Turned Into A Disastrous Disappointment...

2008-07-14T03:26:00.000-07:00

Haizz... What I thought would be a fun and enlightening day turned into a day of disasters...

Well... My school was having its annual Charity Fiesta and the whole class decided to tag along... My driver drove me, Andre, my bro and his friend to school, we reached about 9.30am...

However, Chua managed to caught us and we used RM10 coupon to sign on some tiles where it will be shown at the welfare homes... Although reluctant, we decided to do it to support the stall which was taken care by Elise and Amy =)

We met with Seek Sean and we decided to go for breakfast at Mac-D...

The hot cake and sausage set was superb... Sweet maple syrup really light up my day...

Wow... Look at the all the fun I missed...

We met Seh Sen and Sam at about 10.30am... I dunno whose dumb idea is it... However we decided to go to the Haunted House for a first stop... Seek Sean say last time he waited for 1 hour for his turn so I was kinda reluctant to go... But majority of us wanna go so I just go along...

Along the way, we saw the banner which my classmates made on Friday... Lolz, Elise's school turned into "sohool"... If u take a good look, you can see the "C" was actually an "O"... Luckily Madam Lim managed to solve it...

Huhu... I thought the Haunted House would only take us about 1 hour... Instead it took us 3 hours for some cheap, no good, child-like crap which doesn't take even 5 minutes...ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!... Pissed everyone off...

Only 30 minutes before my driver come and I still have RM45 worth of coupons remained unused.. Shit!!... I gave it to Seh Sen to spend it coz me and Andre have a tuition to catch at 3pm... Walao E... I missed about 80% of the event... Magic shows, live performances, game stalls, food stalls, prize exchanging... All wasted on the FUCKING Haunted House!!!!... FUCK MYSELF TO THE CORE!!!!!!!... If I dint waste that 3 hour waiting in that FUCKING SHIT, I would be carrying home tons of prizes for now (teddy bears, pendrives, PS2, I-POD, mountain bikes and many many more) ALL GONE JUST LIKE THAT!!! ARGH...

And the disaster doesn't end there... I had to reach tuition late coz I have to rebandaged my sprained arm... FUCK pain... my left hand remain numb for about 3 hours... Overpain and lack of painkillers... XD...However, all of us were happy coz we dint met CMD there =P

Today, I asked Seh Sen with that tons of coupons we left for him... He exchanged all of it for a whole box of TC Boy Tuna Spread... OMFG... Damn funny... We wondered how are we gonna finish it, so we decided to bring loaves of bread along tml to share with the class... The Magic of Sharing huh... How ironic...

Lucky Sean got a video of Mr. Chew fell into the pool!!!!... WAHAHAHAHAH!!!!~~~... He fell not because sum1 hit the target, but it was Naga who pulled the mechanism which control the plank where Mr. Chew was sitting... FUCKING FUNNY!!!!~~WAHAHAHAHAH~~!!!!!

To Atone For The Sins I Committed...

2008-07-09T06:24:00.000-07:00

... I am so sorry... So very very sorry...

I had been quite a jerk lately... Annoying you guys to this extent... You can hate me for it...

Sorry to say but I am a sensitive person... I cared more about people's feelings than anything... I would never want anyone upset with me... So I wanted to know the truth if I ever upsetted someone so that I can amend my foolish mistakes...

I am so so sorryyyy.... I guess I had to be more careful on how I treat people next time...

I would never want a friend get pissed off with me... Never ever...

Yea...Yea... I know... My personality had been weird lately... Being a jerk... Sending weird SMSes to the person I wanna apologize... Posting up my emotional words in my blog...

Due to my stupid personalities and consciousness, I had upsetted quite a number of friends... Something like social links had been flowing in reverse way among my friends... I dunno why am I doing this... Is this somthing destined or its just my fate of being alone for the rest of my life?

Haizz... Life's been hard lately... I had to care about exams, family business and relationship among friends...

That's why... From now onwards, I will never ever butt in you guy's personal businesses nor life or even ask for help nor symphathy...Unless it is something urgent or concerning about the welfare of the class...

Rejecting me seems to be the best way of doing so... In order to maintain a constant friendship...

Yet again, I am SOOO SORRYY........ I swear I will uphold my promise... Don't even think about me anymore... Think of me as some idiot who requires constant phychology treatment...

The Day CMD was absent... With A Price...

2008-07-08T03:27:00.000-07:00

WTF... What a day...

Today thought CMD dint come, so the whole F5 students who despised him were damm happy... cheering around and spreading the news around... Seek Sean was dancing around, Seh Sen was rapping about him, Sam was shaking hands with everyone while me yelling in the class... XD
However, I guess that everything happy does come with a price, just like alchemy...

When I was having fun in the futsal court because the whole class's boys were playing today... We can't play basketball today because they are setting up the tents for the Charity Fiesta day...

I was trying to kick a ball and somehow lost my balance... And it just happen like that... My left hand was in agonizing pain and friends rushing to check me out... Its nice to have you all, thx you... Seh Sen got me a packet to ice to ease the pain... Darn!!! I can't straighten my left hand and it was left crooked just like that... Friends say my hand happen so because CMD dint come... @@

We can't do anything about it so I went straight to the "Tie Da" doctor to see my wounds... OMGWTFBBQ!!!... He said I dislocated abit of my elbow and twisted my nerve veins, that is what cause the freaking pain... He massaged my hands for awhile, and then... PLACK!!! I heard my nerve and bones cracking... UWARGH!!! Hurts like hell... The treatment continued for 10 minutes and I almost fainted, my left hand left numb... He bandaged my left hand and he say must leave for 1 week... Cant even touch water, take bath time damm hard...Man, cost me RM 60 for everything... Haizz, I gotta be more careful when having fun and sports at the same time...

Btw, I wanna have a moment of silence for the demise of a favored Code Geass R2 character, Shirley Fenette... She died a terrible death, without even achieving her dreams of dating with Lelouch...

Moments after Rolo arrived, that emotionally-unstable bastard activated his Geass (which stops time) and slashed her in the stomach, leaving her bleeding to death... Just because she said he wanted to help Lelouch reunite with his sister, Nunally (guess Rolo got jealous of)... When Lelouch found her, he tried to kept her alive by activating his Geass on her, commanding her to live on forever... But I guess its all too late, she lost too much blood...
Just before her hand falls limp, she confessed her love to Lelouch, She said: "I know that you are fighting all alone, I tried to help you but I guess it dint help out much... I couldn't get myself to hate you, even though you are the ZERO who killed my father, even though you made me to forget everything, but I had fell in love with you again... So... No matter how many times I am reborned, I will always love you again..."... UWAHHH!!! SOBZ!!! Damm sad words... Lelouch cried out loud of her loss because he also had feelings for her and blamed himself for her memory loss... I wonder who will he blame for Shirley's death...

On the other hand, I found that girls from my class had been despising... They don't wanna talk much about me... I wanna know why... Is it my mistake or wrongdoings which hurt you all so much??... If so, please tell me so I can amend it... Plz tell me the reasons that you all don't like me... I wanna know... So I can change for the better good... Plz... Plz... I don't wanna get rejected or alone anymore... UWARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Gundam Models Collection Hitting The 60 Line!!!

2008-06-29T04:07:00.000-07:00

Woohoo!!! After 5 and a half years of collecting gundam models... I finally hit the 60 line XD

Say hi to the 2 latest gundam models: (MG 1/100 scale Sword Launcher Strike Gundam & 1/100 Unicorn Gundam Ver.Ka)...

Btw, I found that quite a number of you guys liked the post I made abt CMD...

Well I guess its reality that most ppls dun like that fool... But plz dun expose this post nor blogsite to him...

I really hope that he will change for the good because isn't it is obvious that his former gang fully rejected him due to his annoying and badass attitude!? So far my gang only partially rejected him, still answering his questions... But he still act like a bigshot and act like the gang belongs to him... Well I gonna tell you all that I am not gonna let that happen!!! If he still continue to do so, I am gonna take drastic actions... (total rejection)...

I dunno why he phoned me this evening... Damn him!!!... Wake me up in the middle of my rest and I am having one of the worst headaches in my life... I just rejected his call and switched off the phone... But I couldn't sleep anymore... (still having headache)...

Well, today I experienced one of the heaviest rains in my hometown... It rained cats and dogs for about 5 hours and it haven't even subsided or even stopped... (it started raining about 2pm today)... The drain overflowed and kinda damaged my house garden... SobZ... My flower plants got so drenched... I lost my favourite orchid plant which I had planted for 5 months... T.T

This morning I had one of the worst headaches in my life... I had to cancel my basketball match with my friends and they got upset with me... I took aspirins and painkillers but neither of them worked... I tried to sleep and that darn CMD phoned my in the middle of my sleep... Dun see any remedy that could cure me... Feel like banging my head towards the wall so much...

Oh, btw, on 27th of June, 2 person that closed with me celebrated their birthday!!! One of them is my second brother who turned 11 years old and Elise Cho from my class who will be a fully-fledged driver that day...(17 years old)...

The cake of my second bro looks like a Doraemon (he is mad of Doraemon) XD so cute!!! Elise's birthday cake was nice also... I like the chocolate layer in the cake... so rich and aromatic...

I got my brother a pair of parrots (he is a avid animal pet lover) and Elise a present (top-secret) but I am glad she liked it =)

Andre a.k.a Emo King got so emo again... I know he is in charge of the class magazine character design... But I see every1 is giving him so much pressure until he got so pissed off... Even there are 2 fools in my class who refused to let him draw their cartoon-like characters (dun wanna name them as I had already cut all ties with them)... They drew themselves and passed it to Andre... Andre got pissed coz they are not following his style of drawing and quota (1 quarter A4 page per character but they draw half page full for each)... Andre got mad and said they just trying to show off and have a bigger piece in the school magazine... Haiya... If they dun like it, then just dun post their cheap drawings... Take it or leave it... Or just put their characters in the bottom corner of the page where not much attention is given... Hmph!! Think they are so great ar for being quiet and acting like teacher's pet in the class... Well I gotta tell you 2 that you both are so wrong as only more ppl hate you all... Why can't you all just follow the class majority and stop trying to act solo... Do you want us to reject you as well!?

Haizz, life just can't torment me enough... I tried to stay alive... But my will seems to be so weak that sees death as the only option for every problem... *BANG!!!* A quick death should be a nice 1 (0.03 seconds)... My mind wouldn't even feel anything...

A Plan of Rejecting CMD...Going For The Worst

2008-06-26T04:08:00.000-07:00

Wu...Warghhh!!!!!!!!!
That's it!!! I had enough of his freaking nonsense!!!
Today at Physics Lab, he purposely sit on the chair that Seek Sean reserved for me so he can speak with Seh Sen... Seek Sean told him to get off but he yelled "What gives you the right to say that to me!?"
After that, Seek Sean got pissed off and he moved to other group... During the session, he kept talking to Seh Sen and I can't listen to a damn thing the teacher said... I told him to shut up but I guess he just kept a deaf ear on it...
Whats worst, when I was copying my practical book, he just findle open the last page when I was writing... WTF is wrong with his brain!? He even almost broke my precious long ruler!!!!
Well at lunch, he kept butt in our talks when we are concentrating on a certain topic...
All this happened because his former gang (Omega gang) fully rejected him due to some unknown reasons... Well I guess I know the reason now... and we named him CMD... Its stands for:
C= Commanding-Cum
M=Madness-Jerk
D=Dumbass
Well, thats only a partial of him... He is dumb... never listens or even study... his results suks... even during exam, he asked Seh Sen to let him copy his exam papers... If got wrong, he blamed Seh Sen for it... WTF... He was the one who wants to copy... Damn him!
He even liked to use the word 'Limpeh' and commanding tone in his conversation, thinking he was somekind of a bigshot or boss... butt in our conversation...
He never even brings a water bottle to school, he just take one of our bottles and gulped in water... Man, I think I am getting HIV for that shit!!!
He always a last-minute guy... Always lend Seh Sen's notes and even lost some of them... Poor Seh Sen... He even took Seh Sen's Moral project to copy, saying he will return on the last day, I doubted that seriously... I dunno how Seh Sen could endure him for this long...
ARGH... This is what I hated him the most!!! He likes to findle ppl's bags and take things without the owner's permission... Sometimes he open my bag and took a few candies and even denied he took it... WTF... He even like to 'po lampa' to gain something that ppl's pitiness... But that ain't gonna work on me anymore, I tell ya!!!
I lend him some anime and he say he will return in a week... But I only get it back after 2 weeks... He keeps forgetting it... Does he have brain damage/ short memory?... When I got back the DVD, it become scratchy and have glitches... He said he copy the files into the PC, causing damage to my DVD... I yelled at him, did I say I wanna let you copy and he just walked away and acted like nothing happened...
Even teachers despises him, especially Mr.Abu... He always fight with him, acting like he got every rights in this world... Mr.Abu say he was very disrespectful and I guess its very true... He also never passed up any homework or notes... I bet you all that some of his notebook still as good as new...
Man... Oh God.... Heavens Above... Please get him out of my life.... I think the world will be a hell better place without his existence... (no offence)

Deeply Saddened by An Inconvenient Truth

2008-06-24T12:50:00.000-07:00

Haha... I hope I would realize this sad truth much sooner...
I think I am a fking, good for nothing, mentally-unstable idiot...
Is this what I get after what I had done for you all?
You all never reply my SMS nor even in MSN... Even though you really did chat with me, I felt an aura of reluctant, that you do not like to chat with me...
Whenever I approached you all, I felt an aura of dislikement, a feeling of getting rejected by you all... Why?... Why!?...!!!
Is all those what I had done not enough to satisfy you all? I tried my very best to give you all the best things I could offer...
I even felt getting rejected more when I saw my friend's HP full of SMS from you all!? Even chatting in MSN for hours without getting away from the same topic... When I wanna chat with you all, you all just give me weird or dumb reasons to leave the conversation...
You all never even cared about me!? Never even replied my freaking super-short SMS or even accepting my calll!? Hahaha... I guess I should be alone after all... Without anyone to care for me but myself...
Even though I offered snacks/candies to you all, what you all did was just take and a simple "THX YOU,EJ..." AHAHAHA!!!! Don't make me laugh!!! Even I can felt that rejecting feelings imbued in those words!!!
And what really saddens me is that you all just send me an SMS, "EJ, tml plz brg this and that to school..." You all are really using me!!! Taking advantages of my soft personality and weak persona!!! Well, you all are very wrong!!! I am just like a human like you all, able to think and chat... I see now... You all are just using me!!! Just like the old me from 6 years ago...AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sometimes I heard that you all said bad words behind my back that I am stupid, idiotic, easy manipulated to do almost everything!!! I had had enough of all this freaking nonsense!!!
If you all hate me or despise me... Just say it out loud and I will be gone from your sight that very moment you all said those piercing words!!!
To tell you all, I am quite senile enought when editing this sad post, so don't think that I had gone crazy or something... I am just voicing out the feelings and clearing doubts that had hold me for the past few months... No hard feelings...
Well, I gotta admit, that was clever enough of a strategy of you all using me up like that.... To tell you what, say good bye to the EJ you all know a few months because I had self-resolved to not being a disposable set of stationaries, using me all up and just throw me away like that!!!
Sayonara old EJ, and the new EJ shall bring forth revolution of mind to you all!!!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! (crying and laughing maniacally)

The Day My Father Turned 47 Years Old...

2008-06-21T04:13:00.000-07:00

20th of June Year 2008... The Day My Father Added Another Candle On His Birthday Cake...
Well the initial plans of celebrating my father's Birthday in a luxurious restaurant dint turn out quite well... So we decided to celebrate it as usual at home...
My father said a big cake with all the family members together, what else could I want?
Those words really touched me alot coz my father really cared about family more than anything else...
Father, Happy Birthday and once again, I LOVE U!!! =)

A Crazy Day At The Chemistry Lab... XD

2008-06-17T03:31:00.000-07:00

Wow!! What a fun day at the Chemistry lab XD
Today my team consisting of (Me, Andre, Seek Sean, Seh Sen, Ching Wei & Jing Cong) did 2 experiments of redox (oxidation and reduction) ...
Our experiment turned out successfully, the picture on the top were our experiment results...
Most of them were disgusting looking, even got 1 looked like blueberry + blackberry jelly...Yew...

However, we finished our experiment far more earlier than other groups... We got bored and mixed all of the 2 experiment's materials and chemicals into 1 weird, yucky cocktail XD

But... We dint expect our results to be this interesting... Autonomic reaction continously... Woo...

Check out the video above!!!

Our teacher saw and she also got interested... She said we could even get a "Nobel Prize" for it...JK...XD...Coz she also can't explain why....Ahahahahaha!!!! Don't get freaked out and enjoy!!!

Call Me The CandyShop Man!!

2008-06-16T03:23:00.000-07:00

Lolz... Our class started on the MMP project...
One of my classmates proposed to give everyone a funny nickname... XD
I guess I got this nickname because of my tendencies to give my classmates free candies or chocolate confectionaries everyday...
So far I had given about all of them candies such as Kopiko, fruit candies, gummies, Mentos and chewing gums... As for chocolate alot of high quality 1 ^^ such as Ferero Roccher, Tolberone, Annicelli, Cadbury, Hersheys and Swiss chocolates XD...
They like me for this because my candies served as an immediate energy supply if they ever get sleepy or tired in classes...LOLZ...
Never get too low on your blood sugar level if you got me around... XD
I like this nickname alot because it suits me perfectly and I have a big sweet tooth (like to eat candies and chocolates)...

Tragedy Strikes...A Day of Depression and Frustration...

2008-06-09T02:34:00.000-07:00

Haha... How ironic...

I pulled the dreadful trigger... but yet I am still here blogging... XD...

What another terrible day... I just found my answer to life just a couple of days ago...

But yet... I yearned and called out for the Grim Reaper... again...

3rd term of school started with the giving out of the mid year exam papers...

My results all plunged to the very bottom because I haven't been studying seriously... Only 50% effort was given to the papers... I guess its quite normal...

But... I felt a terrible and overwhelming sense of self-guilty and self-blaming... I felt guilty for not taking on the responsibility of a student well and blamed my damned self for thinking that exam for mid-year was not really important...

When I saw the results of my fellow classmates, I felt another sense of jealousy and anger... I was mad at myself for not attaining my original position in the class and jealous of my friends' self conviction and resolved to study for the coming SPM...

I reached home and hoped for that black shiny thingy again... My other self is calling myself to end my freaking life right here and right now... But thanks a lot to my friends' (Amy and Elise) continuously advising for appreciating my only life... Thanks a million...

I am now self conflicted inside my mind... It seems the old me is battling against the evil me to gain total power over one another... So that this never ending battle of mind controlling is over once and for all...

My Answer To Life

2008-06-07T04:54:00.001-07:00

I always thought that journey for the answer for life is death...
Death... such a wonderful but yet dreadful word...
Death means no more suffering, total peace at last, no worries about anything...
But when I am alive, what makes me think I am alive...?
When I yearn for death, something in my heart prevents me from thinking of it...
Its not something that I can control, its like my soul... protecting me...
I see... Friendship...
"What gives you life? What makes you realize that you are alive...?
If it isn't just death...
If there's something else...
It could be... Friendship..." Quote from Aigis, Persona 3 character and P3 FES main heroine
Maybe because of such small matters, I desired to die... haha... I am such a foolish person... for discarding such a basic emotion... But yet, I sense another being inside my soul, the endless sea of thoughts and mind...
It is the darker side of me... dual persona... living in the same vessel... The OTHER me... yearns for nothing but destruction and suffering... When I regain control... I realize that I had hurted a lot of people... something that I can't control with my consciousness... Please... avoid me if you see something wrong with me...
I think I require more stronger friendship and social links... only can prevent the other me from coming out... I guess I had to strengthen my links... social links... soul links with all my fellow friends and pals... in order to achieve a better life... as well as understanding more about the meaning of being alive...
"Strength of heart, when united, is barred by no doors..." Quote from Igor, character from Persona 3 and P3 FES

Losing Hope To Live On A Miserable Life...

2008-06-03T21:43:00.000-07:00

Haizz... What a miserable and terrible holiday...
My perfect plans for holiday went into smoke... During Redang trip, friends didn't wake me up to watch sunrise as they promised (gave me dumb excuses)... Friends misunderstanded me for unknown reason (I am trying to find out)... Friends refuse to talk to me for unknown reason (maybe they are EMOing?)... Parents scolded me for didn't take good care of my brother when they are gone (brother fell in the toilet himself...)... Brother broke my Gundam model (cost me RM342)...
Man... I feel I had just fallen into The Abyss of Despair... Feel like ending my miserable life with my own stained hands... Ahaha.... AHAHAHAHAH!!!!! (laughing maniacally)
Just yesterday, my dad opened his safe and forgot to close it back after he went out...
And then... I saw the black shining thingy I had always wanted to use it for obvious reason...
I took the thingy up and pointed it at my fragile head...
Ahah!!!AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH...!!!!ARGHAHAHAHAHAHA...!!!!
Should I pull the tiny trigger? (to end my miserable life?) or should I put it back? (endure it and go on with this stinking life?)
I dunno what to do right now... I feel that I had suffered enough for a lifetime... My fragile mind and heart are at the verge of breaking apart... When something important is broken, it is almost impossible to put it back... What am I born for? What I suppose to do...!?
ARGH!!!!! (screaming to the dark distant but yet starry sky...)

Final Day of The Redang Island Trip

2008-05-30T05:44:00.000-07:00

Haizz... I missed the sunrise... SobZ.. Why the others dint call me wake up =.=

We board the motorboat at 8am and went into the bus at 10pm... I also bought a big dolphin plushieOn the way back, we slept coz we havent been sleeping much yest night...

Haizzz... happy moments dun last forever... We finally reached school at 10pm.. We bidded every1 farewell and went home... Damm SAD!!! UWAHH..!!!

I wanna thank every1 for this wonderful trip!!! Especially Amy and Elise, u both girls had worked hard and overnight to make this trip a success... THX A LOT!!! Anything u both need my help just tell me, I will try my very best to help u out!!!

Day 2 at Redang Island Trip

2008-05-30T05:11:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. Got up quite early this morning lolz...

After breakefast, we went for an early snorkelling at Marine Park...

The place was great but due to sunblock pollution, most of the corals had disappeared...

Accidentally cut my leg during snorkelling, lucky its not serious LOLZ

OMG time!! After we had our bath and lunch, we decided not to go for the final snorkelling trip coz we got terrible sunburn... I got the worst 1... =.=Hmm.... back the to main topic, so we decided to kill time in the room... We played poker cards over and over again XD When we notice the time, it was 7pm already LOLZ From this trip, I found that Benny isn't quite the 1 I know (he scolded "PISS ME OFF") WAHAHAHAHA!!!

So, we went for our dinner... This dinner was the best 1 we ever had XD

Later that, we went for beach walk... We visited sum hotels and shops XD We also lucky to see a shooting star, the blue sand (which is coral eggs), also the More More Tea Inn (film by Sammy Cheung)... Bought sum souveniers, cost abt RM80.. ZZZ The beach at Redang was so nice... sea breeze and starry sky, makes me feel like staying there forever... The sand at night was cooling too! I found that our resort was not kinda good if compared to others.. But watever la, its already a good thing to be there XD

When we see our watches, it was already 11pm and its time to go back... On our way back, we played the swings there XD

That night, we decided not to sleep coz we wanna see sunrise ( I missed that) by playing poker cards all night long... Finally, I succumbed to tiredness at 3am.. ARGH... What a waste!

Day 1 at Redang Island trip

2008-05-29T23:03:00.000-07:00

Hmm... We reached the jetty at 7.30am this morning and we set off by motorboat at 8pm... The trip was not very fun as it was cramped and shaky XD The journey took abt 45m mins... We did sum funny stuffs to kill time LOLZ

We reached the island at 9.30am... XD We had to cross the sea to the beach... After checking in our rooms, we were shocked to find the room small and lack of equipments.. ZZZ

But watever la, me, Seh Sen, Seek Sean, Sam, Benny and Shien Hong quickly changed to our swimming trunks and had fun in the sea... The sea was cool and crystal clear... I accidentally drank 2 mouthful of sea water.. YUCKS!!!Later after lunch, we enjoy the sea view at a nearby bar... The place was very calm, feels like I can stay there forever listening to the sea breeze and waves.... Then we went for snorkelling!! Woohoo!!! It was fun and exciting!! Kinda scary when u cant feel ur legs in the sea.. The view was simply magnificient XD Too bad nobody had an underwater camera...

And later that night, we played poker all night long after dinner... We had to cramp 7 ppl in 1 room as stupid Hazmi and Wei Jian locked Benny and Shien Hong outside.. ZZZ WTF la them...

College Life In One Day (SAM)

2008-05-29T22:19:00.000-07:00

XD Today I am very excited coz I get to enjoy college life in one day...

To much of my demay, it seems our main character dint showed up (Sam) but I am still happy with the friends who turned up..

After having breakfast at Mac-D, we were given a small orientation at the lecture hall...

Guess who turned up for the programme.... XD

College life is so exciting, whole new school lifestyle waiting for me next year, can't wait for it!

After the programme, me, Seek Sean, Benny and Seh Sen decided to go Seh Sen's house at Kota Kemuning for fitness and dinner before the trip tonight...

The fitness workout was fun and enjoyable XD Then the sauna and steam room was the best bcoz its my 3 rd time inside it! However, the dinner was kinda overcharged bcoz I can't believe they charged RM10 for just that 2 small appetizers!! WTF!!!

Then at 8pm we set off for Sri KL for the trip! Yay!! I tried to get sum sleep in the bus but the Delta students hamper my sleep... Very noisy == I wonder if they are too smart until the brain got childish? ( no offence )

2008-05-29T22:17:00.000-07:00

A Million ZEROs Wow!!!
Well played Lelouch, well played bcoz u undertand ur fren the most...
But next week there wouldn't be Code Geass R2 airing.. suks...
It seems they are moving to the Chinese Federation, another new story coming up LOLZ

Huh? I Got Tagged!!? Wow!! What A Suprise!!! XD

2008-05-24T06:39:00.000-07:00

8 Things That I Mostly Did

=>Thinking and Answering Everything In Life

=>My 600++ Manga Collection XD

=>My Sacred Altar of 46 Gundam Models (more coming out @@)

=>Collecting accessories of My Favourite Anime

=>My Collection of 52 Anime Series (Original!!!)

=>My 150+ Anime Soundtracks and J-Pop Songs (frm OST and Internet)

=>My PC (all of my important data are stored)

=>My Rebellious Life (dual persona make my life interesting and risky >.<)

8 Phrases That I Used The Most

=>Hey, Yo, SupZ

=>lo, la, ma, leh (Malaysians' Virus on their everyday speech @@)

=>Lol, XD, zzz, wtf (My internet slangs, dun blame me if you dun understand my short form XD)

=>Damn 9 u, Damn it, Damn u to Hell, Darn it (Sry but I am a rough languaged man XD)

=>Rude Words of All Races (Wahahahahaha)

=>What The Hell, What The F***, What On Earth (Like Hell who ever what what what me =.=)

=>Chh!, Aargh, Grr..., Urgh! (Normal expressions for depression)

=>Whatever, Nothing la, Never mind, Don't piss me off, Fine...

(To Be Honest, I Think My Favourite Phrases Actually More Than Humans In This WORLD!!!)

8 Books I Had Read These Days

=>Code Geass Fanbook & Character Book

=>D Gray Man Manga 1st-16th volume

=>MX0 Manga 12th volume (end)

=>A Life With Multiple Personalities or Persona (teach me how to control my other persona)

=>YuGiOh GX Manga 5th volume

=>A Meaningless Life

=>Chobits 1st-8th volume (end) (1 of the best romance manga I ever read!! Anime roxx too!!!)

=>PS Game Magazines (I am a hardcore gamer)

(Actually I read more manga than I write, dun expect me to write all out!!! XD)

8 Songs That I Listened To Always

=>Karma (Instrumental ver.) by Bump of Chicken

=>Opening of Shining Force EXA by (no idea =.=")

=>Daybreak's Bell by L~Arc~En~Ciel

=>Ash Like Snow by The Brilliant Green

=>COLORS by FLOW

=>02 by Orange Range

=>Run For Your Life by Haruka Shimotsuki

=>Hey/Nee by Marie

(Actually Depends On My Mood la, I Can Stay Up Whole Day Listening To All Of My Songs... I dunno why? But Chinese & English dun Fancy Me Much... J-pop Songs Roxx To The CORE!!!)

8 Important Lessons That I Learned Recently

=>Lazy Is A Sin, But Its Nice to Be Lazy Once In A While XD

=>Anything Is Possible If You Have The Determination & Will For It

=>Treasure Secondary Life, You Would Never Know How Fast Time Flies (I Mean It!!!)

=>Have Fun With Fellow Friends Is Better Than With Family (No Offence... =.=)

=>Show No Mercy To Your Enemies Or The One U Hated, Or U Will Regret

=>Losing Friend Is Sad, But U Will Feel Better Soon

=>Laugh & Smile Is The Best Medicine Ever Existed

=>Satisfaction At The End Is What Make The Day Perfect!! =)

8 Best Friends That I Wanna Tag

=>Elise

=>Andre

=>Amy

=>Cheryl (wonder if she ever visit my blog =.=)

=>Erica (havent met her since last year, hope to see her soon XD)

=>Lik Pin

=>Geng Yong & Hong Shen (Doglike Gang XD)

An Outing with All of My Best Friends at 5 BETA

2008-05-23T22:45:00.000-07:00

Man, yest was one of the best days ever!!

Too bad sum of u guys have to go back early /.\

I hope to have fun wit u guys again XD

Yest I bought an artbook, 10 mangas, a new T-shirt XD

A Hell Soon Over...

2008-05-22T02:44:00.000-07:00

WooHoo!!!

Exam is 99% over!!!

Tml Moral only ma, go school study also got time left XD

Can't wait till the Redang trip day...

Hope to see u guys at Sunway Pyramid tml!! ^^

Lets have fun!!!

Hope For A Better Tomorrow...

2008-05-21T02:47:00.000-07:00

Sorry I dint really pay notice to you guys' bloggies...

It seems that one of my precious classmate is under mental torment for losing a precious item...

But plz dun be sad T.T ok?

U still have me as well as the whole class behind u!

Anything u need u can just tell us, there is no secrets between friends right?

Anyways...

Lets hope for a better tomorrow... (A poem as well as a song)

ENJOY IT!!!

Something is still missing

Something keeps 'em blind

Like a prescious sacrilege

They can never find

So they walk together

Into a silent war

Though it seems to take forever

This generation is finally heading for...

A Better Tomorrow

Tell me can't you feel it?

Tell me can't you see it?

Tell me can't you hear it?

I know it ain't just me

Let us walk together

What are we waiting for?

It is now or never

This generation is finaly heading for...

A Better Tomorrow

Day by day we're praying for,

It to come across the shores

It brings new hope, it brings new light

Nameless spirits now they shine

One by one become aware

New consciousness will be there

And all the blind

Now they will see, embrace their minds

To plant the seeds for...

A Better Tomorrow

Into The Dawning Sky...

2008-05-21T02:41:00.000-07:00

Wow!! Just 2 more days to go!!! Woohoo!!!

Man!! I can't wait for the day of the Redang trip XD

Everyone lets PARTY!!!

The Discarded Mask...

2008-05-20T04:24:00.000-07:00

Another exciting episode from Code Geass R2...!!!

Man I hate that Suzaku!! Argh!!

Well it seems that Lelouch is in a trauma that his sis got kidnapped right in front of his eyes and thinking whether he should continue his alias as ZERO...

At the end, he participates in the Japan Special Administrative Region as a support of his sis's plans for a peaceful Japan..

Well that goes to show that Lelouch is going to be ZERO all along and no more blood spilling?

Nah.. That would just totally ruin the good story.. I thk there would be another big plot twist coming out..

It seems the next episode that the Chinese Federation would cut in Japan's administration..

I hope this series doesn't dissappoint me!!!

Physics A Relieve Turned Nightmare!!!

2008-05-20T04:22:00.001-07:00

Omg today's physics I thought y so easy de Paper 1 and 3 and then suddenly Paper 2 is a total nightmare!!!

I wonder would I get for Physics ==

The Day The Virus Attacks!

2008-05-20T04:08:00.000-07:00

Hi all once again!

I can't believe that my pc broke down just the day after I created my blog XD

Is it an omen? @@

The Day The Demon Awakens...

2008-05-17T04:25:00.000-07:00

Hi all fellow bloggers out there!I am a new blogger recently and I hope to meet more frenZ out there!

I am a mad anime freak (thats wat my frenZ call me XD), especially of Gundam and Code Geass.

Don't worry as I will post new blogs abt animes from time to time, especially Code Geass @@.

Plz leave comments or add me as a link ('-')V

~Never~Fear~That~Your~Life~Will~End~,~Only~Fear~That~It~Will~Never~Begin~

~This~Is~It~

~A~Weird~But~Yet~Satisfying~Holiday~!?~

~Beware~Of~Confident~Tricksters~

Is~This~The~True~Me~?

~Desire~For~A~Drastic~Change~In~The~World~

1st meeting of Taylors Anime Society and Visual Novelling~

A Seed That Flown Away, To Germinate In A Foreign Land

A Couple of Happy and Sad Things~

A Big Step In Life~ College Life Officially Commenced~!

Merry Xmas & Happy New Year to All~ Also a couple of Birthday Wishes

Finding Reasons To Continue Blogging~ And Something About Classmates~

Long Awaited Freedom, SPM is so freaking OVER~!!! ~Woot~

Fleeting and Everlasting Sorrow~ A Great Song About The Sorrow of LOVE~ Woot~!!!

~A New Look, A New Hope, A New Desire~ Unlimited Transparency~

Final Day of the Betabyte~ A Sad Day~ Miss euch, egal was!

~My 17th Birthday~ Thx All Friends For Giving Me This Wonderful Surprise Party~Liebe dich alle und Dank~

~Graduation Night~ Eine Nacht daran zu erinnern, ewig

Mad About Tagging =o= ~ *fainting* ~ Sind Sie verrückt nach Jungs Tagging?

Way To The Prime Star ~ Warum bin ich nicht so sehr gehasst?

A Week Full Of Thoughts, Might Wanna Quit Blogging ~ Ein Leben mit Interwined unabwendbares Schicksal und das Schicksal

Replying A Belated Taggy ~ Aufrichtig entschuldigen für die verspätete Antwort

The End of A Trial, The Beginning of Another One ~ Ewige Folter und leiden

Tortured to Insanity~ Requiem von Add Mathematik

Borned To Be Alone~ Der Wille zur Macht

Tales of Vesperia... To Enforce One's Justice...

A Day To Be Remembered... 5 BETA Class Farewell Dinner

Replying A Belated Tagged...

CMD...A Moron Stickier Than Any Glue Existed...

A Sigh of Relief After 2nd Monthly Test...

A Charity Fiesta Turned Into A Disastrous Disappointment...

To Atone For The Sins I Committed...

The Day CMD was absent... With A Price...

Gundam Models Collection Hitting The 60 Line!!!

A Plan of Rejecting CMD...Going For The Worst

Deeply Saddened by An Inconvenient Truth

The Day My Father Turned 47 Years Old...

A Crazy Day At The Chemistry Lab... XD

Call Me The CandyShop Man!!

Tragedy Strikes...A Day of Depression and Frustration...

My Answer To Life

Losing Hope To Live On A Miserable Life...

Final Day of The Redang Island Trip

Day 2 at Redang Island Trip

Day 1 at Redang Island trip

College Life In One Day (SAM)

Huh? I Got Tagged!!? Wow!! What A Suprise!!! XD

An Outing with All of My Best Friends at 5 BETA

A Hell Soon Over...

Hope For A Better Tomorrow...

Into The Dawning Sky...

The Discarded Mask...

Physics A Relieve Turned Nightmare!!!

The Day The Virus Attacks!

The Day The Demon Awakens...

Mad About Tagging =o= ~ fainting ~ Sind Sie verrückt nach Jungs Tagging?